Cheat day is here

Well..it was here. I didn't go as over board as my usual cheat days and there was no alcohol involved..but I did go over my budget and I feel like crap.
I had a headache all day and I feel so bloated I'm pretty convinced that I am on the road to explosion!

On a more exciting note, august is about over and September is near!!! I'll be leaving for vacation Friday. Then the 21st is my engagement party. I'm so excited for it! I've started planning a lot..but can't execute much right now. I decided I will just have to use my birthday and Christmas money to buy my dress and Scots ring. I have his ring picked out and I want to make it a surprise. I know he will love it!

Must sleep now. Church in the morning. I feel so huge and disgusting. Not a very positive way to end this entry but its true. Yuck.

Weigh in day is here!

And my weigh in is 138.4lbs.
The monthly nuisance still hasn't poked its ugly head but my senses are indicating it is unnervingly close!
Guess I'm not as on track as I thought I was. Oh well! Can't change genetics!

I'm not upset with my weigh in, though. I'm pretty happy that I'm out of the 140s. I'm unsure of when my cheat day will occur. It'll probably be some random day that I don't expect. Or tomorrow..
That might push me back up to 140 but I still feel like it is another feat that I can cross off my list. (I've been putting check marks next to every 5 lbs I lose and the reward I SHOULD be receiving.
140 was a hair cut and new clothes. I did cut my hair but can't afford new clothes. However, I fit awesomely into old highschool and college clothes! I'll take that reward over anything!!!
135 is suppose to be melting pot. Its not going to happen though. Scot still has no job! And I'm not selling enough eBay items for dentist, wedding, baby food, anything!..let alone a weight loss reward dinner.
I suppose I will change my reward. Not sure to what.. but maybe it'll be extra special if I do reach it by Sept 21st for my engagement party.

Late update, the dress is getting closer but I am still not loving the way it fits. I will try again at 135. If I'm still not loving it by my engagement party, maybe after 10 months of my wedding workout routine it'll look great. Then I can wear it at my bachelorette party or something!
I won't kick it to the curb just yet.

The size 8 shorts that I have are getting a little too baggy. I might try to fit in my 5/6s. I just feel like its too soon. I still have 8 and a half pounds to go.
I guess I can wear belts or retort back to skirts and dresses.

My vacation starts in a little over a week. Hopefully Scot will start a job about then. His friend said he should be receiving a phone call to start work that week. No word yet though. We really need income so I'm praying every single day about it!

Measuring in!

36-29.5-35
Once again, Scot helped me measure.
Its looking like a nice little change from last week. Hopefully tomorrow will be a great weigh in!

We went to starved rock today and dropped off our down payment and signed contract! We also booked a cabin for the night before our wedding and of course our wedding night! Its so beautiful and exciting. It motivated us to establish a budget and finish our wedding website!
I am so happy and so excited!

We walked around the park a little to pick a few locations for pictures. I pushed the baby around in her stroller which was pretty tough going uphill! I'm sure I burned more calories than I even realize.
We stopped on our way home and ate at Culvers. I had the fish sandwich and half of my french fries.
For dinner I had the chili we made last night. Its so very yummy!!
I think I'll have more for lunch tomorrow. For two cups its only about 360 calories. Not too bad!

So hopefully today's actions will have a positive effect on my weigh in. I know fast food isn't too positively promising, but I did exercise!

I'm also excited and nervous because my football fantasy draft is tomorrow. Its the first time I've paid to join a league and can earn money. I hope I win because God knows I could use the money! My eBay items are still suffering. I did get one bid so far and that is great! Its only 1 dollar, but that's 1 dollar I didn't have before! I'll only need 99 more for the dentist and then I'll focus on the wedding. I'll need money to buy Scots ring and my wedding dress. If only money dropped out of the sky for stay at home moms haha!

Anyway, I know this is a weight loss blog and I get seriously side tracked..but life happens. In order to effectively lose weight, its best to enjoy every step of the way. That's what I've tried doing these past 6 months and that is my intentions for the future. The downs happen but it can be used as motivation to work harder and get through it. The light at the end of the tunnel is so worth the journey!

What a wonderful Wednesday!

Tomorrow I am going to starved rock to pay the 1600 dollar down payment. My parents were generous enough to help with that! I'm still penny pinching for dental bills. I need about 100 bucks for what's left. None of my eBay items are selling! But I'm staying positive.

I have faith that this weeks weigh in will be much better than last weeks. My body seems to be zoning in and out of my cycle. It could be a result of nursing. I know I went so long without it at all! But the past couple months I've been more regular than I have my entire life. Next week should be a more drastic drop I'm guessing.

And then vacation with my family September 6th for a week. I intend on sticking to my diet. Except for one cheat day. Also I probably wont be able to weigh in that week which is going to drive me nuts!!! But the following week will be another possibly drastic drop then.
I'd still like to be 135 by my engagement party. That gives me 23 days! I think I can do it! No, I WILL do it!
I might try on the red dress again to see if there's any hope for it at all!

I'll post the results of that plus my measurements tomorrow. Might post pics of starved rock, too. I'm so excited!!!

Last August progress pic!

My cycle has not started but it appears the bloating has gone down! Most likely it'll soon return but I'm glad it took a break for my last August progress pic. Feel free to scroll through and compare to previous pics (especially February ones!)
I'm feeling rather accomplished today :)

(Maybe the soft food diet is contributing)

More Novocaine please!!

I went to the dentist today and had 3 fillings. Basically I can't eat anything for 2 days that requires chewing. I'm in so much pain right now! Due to nursing, I can hardly take anything for it. My sister is going to steak n shake and picking me up a caramel apple milkshake. Its one of the two fall flavored milk shakes. (The other is smores). Its about 723 calories but I can't eat much anyway! I might split half of it with my mom. I guess that would leave me more room for potatoes and cooked veggies!
Or soup or something.

I got no sleep last night sharing a bed with a kicking and smacking baby! I forgot the swaddler she loves to sleep in. She's close to outgrowing it anyway. But it made for a very sleepless night!

Hopefully Friday will be a good scale day. I understand the weight loss slows as the goal approaches but its such torture!

I feel like the start of my cycle is very near! It could mean an additional week before any big drops in weight.

Day after :/

The day after the cheat day of all cheat days. No alcohol involved. I'm talking donuts cake cookies ice cream fried foods, any bad thing u can think of! I'm going to check the scale to see the damage. The added weight should shed faster since there was no alcohol.
Plus my friend Naomi sent me a work out regimen to shape up for the wedding! I'll start that soon since I've only got 13 months left.
Will post my cheat day damage shortly.

Mind blowing update:
140.2 lbs!
That's freakin awesome!!!
If only that could happen all the time!

That really helps with the guilt I was feeling. Hopefully that stays off and I drop more.
My cycle should be starting in a couple days. Then hopefully I'll lose 2-3 lbs.
It might even start today. That could be why I lost slightly opposed to gaining today.
We've been talking about baby #2. We would like him or her to be close to Jadyn's age. I've just worked so hard these past 6 months to drop this weight. If I got pregnant now, I'd have the baby 4 months before the wedding. Scot insists that's enough time to lose whatever I gain, but I don't want to risk it.
We agreed it'd be a blessing if we got pregnant again but I'd just rather wait until after the wedding to try. We have so much to stress about these next 13 months. Scot might be starting a new job in 2 weeks which will be a great help!!
he's posting things on eBay that i would like to sell to try to get money for my dental bills and also so I can buy my own wedding dress and possibly his wedding ring. I probably won't make that much. Especially since no one is bidding on any items we've posted so far. There's still like 5 days left in most biddings. If anyone is interested or curious, eBay search for a sunbeam plasma bulb. I think ours is the only one left. The seller name is Scot239 I believe. Look through the items. There are a few gadgets and books. More will be added soon.

Additional update**
I wanted to take a photo here. In the beginning I couldn't even fit in size 14s..these are 8s..