Temptation

Today Scot is 186.5 lbs and I'm 132.8 lbs.
We were going to get pizza. I don't know if that's going to happen, though. We go so many days being good and then fight again.
All because I'm updating my blog. I have not had much time to do so this past week. He is getting ready to go to the doctor. Apparently I'm an asshole for taking five minutes to write my blog and not clean the house instead. This stress makes this situation so hard and after enough time my feelings start shutting off. I don't like being treated like a child. I just want out of this right now. I'm going to sycamore Wednesday and I might try staying awhile.
I was raised to clean up after myself. He was raised to have women clean up after him.  Why is it so hard to clean up after yourself? Jadyn is one story. She's a baby. Why do I need to clean up after everyone in this house? He doesn't even work. Yet I have to wipe his ass.
Its not fair to be happy and then have it constantly ripped away by a nagging ass

Where have I been?

Cheating nonstop!!!
I'm up to 133.6 and Scot is like 188.
So, back to the buckle!
I have a cheat day coming this Wednesday, but other than that I need to get back into this. Once I hit my goal, I just enjoyed for about 2 weeks. Now I need to get back down.
We have decided that I will continue to nurse the baby for another 6 months. We figure the antibodies will help keep her healthy through the winter. Another plus is that I will continue to burn the extra 500 a day for another half year.
I would like to be done by the wedding so I don't have to worry about pumping or anything on our big day.
Everything is going wonderful here! I can't wait to take Jadyn trick or treating!

New high weights

Scot 187, me 131.8

Still a process but inching closer!

Day after cheat day

After our cheat day, Scot gained .4 lbs. He is 186.2..not bad for all the carp we ate, trust me.
I am 130 lbs! I have officially reached my goal weight!!! I am so excited to share that!!!
I am going to stick to this diet how I have been doing since I am now beginning the weening process of nursing. I don't know how that will effect my weight, but if it results in a gain I still want to be 130. So I might try to get to 125ish so I can afford to gain back a couple. Scot is doing great! He's still dripping a little over 2 lbs a week, he has 21.2 lbs to go. That should take about 2 months to reach. 2 months is much quicker than 11! Feeling awesome!!!

Weekly low

Happy first birthday to my beautiful baby girl! Today is going to be a cheat day in her honor.
Scot weighs 185.8 lbs and I'm still 130.2 lbs.
I haven't exactly reached my goal but I'm so close.
But Scot has lost about 7 lbs. Yay!
He's getting there! 20 lbs to go

Measurements

I haven't taken Scots measurements but I took mine this morning.
35-28-34.
Its about half an inch difference from 2-3 weeks ago.
Scot has been sticking to the diet but not getting on the scale, we haven't done progress pics, and I've never taken his measurements so I have no idea what kind of progress he's making. Will update when I find out. I am not going to have a good weigh in tomorrow after taking 4 cheat days this past week.

Getting back to work

I took another cheat meal last night after Scots surgery. I still weigh less than yesterday though. I'm 133.2 today. I don't think I will reach 130 by Friday anymore!
I'm going to get back on my diet today and start my bridal workout routine. I can post about that. My body just needs some toning now.

Not as planned

We ended up having a cheat weekend. Today Scot is 189.8 lbs. I think he will lose a few by Friday. I went to get some new pants and I am in size 6 now. It was surprising!
It is getting way too cold to wear shorts but I might fit in my old 5s now.
I can try them on next time I'm at my mom's.
I'm still sticking to the diet. My cheat weekend sent me back up to 133.8 lbs but at least I know I'm below 135! I think I already checked that off my list anyway.
Today Scot is having surgery on his hand so he can't eat until this evening.
That will probably make him drop some lbs pretty quick.
Things are going pretty well! Actually enjoying the cooler weather and fall festivities!

Weighing in!

My phone broke, hence the no post yesterday. I'm writing this one from the computer for once. I'll get a new phone today!
I still didn't take measurements because it was just a rough day yesterday. One thing I can say is that I have no clothes that fit me. Even my shirts that were fitted before are baggy now. I don't have any money to buy new clothes, so that kind of stinks!
My weigh in today is 130.2 lbs. I'm only .2 lbs away from my goal! I fully believe that I can reach that by my next weigh in! Then what will I do? Maintain or lose a couple more?
Scot is doing OK on his diet. He's had a few slip ups, but he's a lb less than last weeks weigh in. It's not the 2 lbs a week that he was wanting, but if you don't stick to it you can't expect the best results!
He injured his pinky last week playing football, so he's going to need surgery and it has become somewhat of a problem. He acts like he lost a leg.
Cheat day hasn't been established yet. Tomorrow we are going to a pumpkin patch with his mom. Then Sunday we are going to the Burgoo (no idea about spelling) in Utica. Both will have lots of fun food choices, so it's a rough decision! It'd probably be easier to buy a couple treats tomorrow and save them to eat Sunday, but Scot doesn't have the will power that I do. He also would not save me anything! haha.
I wish he'd lose weight a little bit faster so that it would be motivation to stick with it. He's always sort of fluctuated between 187-190ish, so he probably doesn't see this as much accomplishment. I think that once he's in the low 180s it'll start to sink in a little more.
He does do work outs, but he thinks that he can eat whatever he wants (or just guess on food measurements and calories) and that working out a few minutes will make up for it.
It's harder without my cellphone to track with the loseit app and myfitnesspal.
I have to write down our caloric intake on a piece of paper. I'm not going to even attempt to guess what we burn exercising, though. I'll just have to wait until my phone comes to catch up with all that.
Hopefully it comes today like it's supposed to.
Yesterday was a rough day. Me and Scot fought a lot. Mostly because I wasn't feeling well and he decided that instead of staying home to help me with the baby so that I could rest, he wanted to go out to lunch with some of his family. It just really upset me and it escalated to the point where he broke my phone. So, that's just kind of stress that I'm dealing with at the moment. I really want our family to work. I don't want a broken home, like what I had to grow up with. It's just that sometimes I think that there's someone out there that might respect and appreciate me more. The good times are great, and the bad times are worse than awful. I just don't know what to do. I need some time to myself, but that just isn't going to happen. It would have been perfect if I could drop the baby off with my mom today and go to my friends. She has the apartment to herself tonight. It would be just what I need. Girls night, no stress, just time to breathe. But, we have family portraits in the morning, so that can't happen. I hope another opportunity opens soon that I can take advantage of.

Don't get me wrong. Through all of this stress, I am so ecstatic that I'm almost at my goal weight! .2 lbs is just a toothpick away! I'm so excited, and still in a little disbelief that I've actually done it! When I was 200 lbs, it was just a day dream that I might come this far. Now, here I am! I've made it reality! That's amazing to me. It is definitely worth it. Someday's were hard to pass up the extra food jam packed with all those calories. Someday's I was just so frustrated I wanted to say, "Screw this!"
But, I'm so glad that I didn't give up! I'm so glad that I stayed strong and made such amazing progress.
I just think I need to get out of this house. Sometimes it feels like this house is poison. I could be in the best mood ever, then after being stuck here for a couple days, with no outlet..I start losing energy and change into a bitter resentful person. I can't wait until we can move from here.

Progress pics

These are almost a 5 lb difference from last week...

The day after

Today I weigh 134.2 lbs and Scot is at 191.2 lbs.
So I gained 2 from yesterday and he went up 3. So those numbers are our new weekly highs. We did eat aloooot yesterday! I think it'll come off quick, it usually does.
I think in 2 weeks I'll be at my goal for sure. Just in time for my baby's first birthday!! Yay I'm so excited!!

Well my back is still hurting which makes exercise a little difficult.. but we will have to push through. Even if its just some light cardio. Scot mentioned ordering pizza today. Its not a cheat day so that definitely means we need to exercise!

Cheat day!!

Here is our weekly progress:
Today I am 132.2 and Scot is 188.2.
My monthly nuisance is here so I have a feeling I'll be right around my goal weight in a week or two.
Scot lost 5.2 lbs in his first week! Yay!!!
I'm so happy he's seeing progress.
Today is our cheat day and I'm sure it'll make things fluctuate, so I will just record every Fri (possibly Saturday too). I write our new weights on the calendar in our bedroom on Fridays though.
Its going to be a pretty big cheat day! Pizza for lunch, red lobster for dinner..
Hopefully it won't do too much damage!

Weigh in Friday!

It seems Scot and I are both on a plateau. I am going to weigh in tomorrow as well. But, I'm still 133.2 lbs. That hasn't changed for a couple weeks. I'm not sure if I'll ever lose these last 3 lbs! :/
Scot is 189.4 lbs, which seemingly hasn't changed in 2 days. Still, his first week on the diet and he's lost double his intended weekly loss weight! That is still great! If he lost 4 lbs a week, he'd be at his goal in 6 weeks. I'm sure that seems like a long time to him, but I've been doing this for 8 months and even that has flown by! Sticking to it through the doubts and frustrations is the key to success!
Tomorrow is our cheat day, so I will see how that affects his progress. Hopefully it'll break his plateau and be beneficial like mine usually are. I say "usually" because I'm stuck at 133.2.
I'll take that with a billion smiles over 200 lbs though!
I'm just so close yet it keeps running from me! Sigh...

Thursday night

My daughters doctor called me back and said that continuing to nurse her is perfectly safe. So I guess I'll continue for the next 16 days!
I'm still a little nervous about it but I fully trust her doctor.

We didn't have time to weigh Scot this morning or do our measurements. Tomorrow is weigh in day though and I'm really excited for it! I am hoping within the next couple weeks that I'll be at my goal weight! Also just excited to see how much Scot managed to drop in his first week.
We are discussing our cheat day. It is sounding like either pizza on Saturday or using a red lobster gift card. Either one sounds great to me!

I didn't get to exercise tonight with Scot. He did a 20 min kick boxing routine. I had to relax a little.
My back is so stiff it is almost unbearable. Tomorrow I might try icing it.

Good and bad

The good news is Scot had another good weigh in. 189.4 today!
After Friday I think I will just have him weigh in weekly.
But that's 4 lbs in 4 days! Awesome that he's really sticking to this and seeing those results!

Bad news (for me) is that due to have a silver filling removed, I may need to stop nursing a couple weeks earlier than I'd planned. Its only 2 weeks but the suddenness of this is a little emotional for me. Had I known, I would have waited another month to have the filling replaced.

I don't know how it will effect my weight loss but I guess its time I find out!
I'm waiting on a call back from the pediatrician for her advice, but online resources suggest not having silver fillings removed if u are pregnant, nursing, or plan on being pregnant within 18 months.

I will update on her answer if anyone else stumbles along my blog and has a similar concern!

My favorite month

October 1st is here! And I have my first October progress pics. Browse back through previous entries to compare..
I'd like to snap Scot a first progress pic but not sure it is going to happen. He's refusing to get out of bed and barks at me like a rabid dog. If he wants my help then great, if not.. good riddance! Hopefully he will get up and out of his funk. But for now..here are my new pics..OKk he got up. Today he's 190.4 lbs. So in 2 days he has lost 3 lbs! Here are his 1st progress pics...