Bloating :(

Female cycles suck! Hopefully my bloating will go down by my measurements tomorrow. Otherwise I guess next weeks will just look very drastic.
Then my weigh in is Friday and I'm hoping for the best! I think once my bloating goes down I will try on that red dress again. I'm really wanting to wear it for my engagement party! That is probably going to be September 21st so I might even be able to drop another 10 lbs by then. Wow that is a really exciting feeling! I just felt really giddy when I thought of that! Haha.
Scots last day of work has arrived! 
I hope we can enjoy our time together without his stress getting in the way. I think he will be making a little unemployment plus money taking some classes and possibly some side work with his brother. Crossing my fingers that will take away his stress and help us continue in our positive direction.
Also he's going to be the defensive coach for a youth football team so I think that will make him feel good, too.
Things are going to be good. I have faith.

Today is Jadyn's 9 month doctor appointment. I can't believe how fast time has gone. My baby is growing too fast!!! She is so incredible. She's smart and beautiful and has the best sense of humor. I never forget how blessed I am to have her. She turned my life around and has made all of this possible. I'm so happy!

I just need to exercise a tad bit more. I've been going on walks but its nothing compared to what I was doing! Maybe with Scot having work off he will want to too.

I'm staying positive! Loving the weather! Planning my engagement party! Vacation is in the beginning of September! Many things to look forward to..

Progress pic

My cycle is starting so the bloating is beginning! Hopefully it goes down by my weigh in day. My before and after app is messing up on my phone. So once again I'll just have to post the new pic and you can scroll through past Tuesdays to compare.
I haven't taken a cheat day in a week but I feel like I'm too close to weigh in day to do it now :(
That's why its best to take it on a weekend day. Scots last day of work is tomorrow.. we will see how things go!

Back to the norm

For the first time in an entire week, I've got the house to just me n Jadyn again! Its so much easier to diet on days like these. Scots last day at this job is the day after tomorrow. Then, I don't know how things will be.
I'm not far from reaching my goal weight though, so yay! It'll just take that much more control and dedication to stick to it.
I remember when I weighed 200 lbs and he said "I'd like to see you at a buck forty". At the time it really made me mad but I'm inching closer to that now.
I'd guess in another month I'll be about 140. And hopefully 130 in October.
I think if I did reach my goal and then lost 15 lbs from stopping nursing I'd be 115 and that is a little extreme for 5'7" height.
I'd have to try putting on some muscle weight. And I'd need to work several crunches into my every day routine.
My skin is awful. Funny enough, I saw a magazine photo of Kim kardashian. She lost 50 lbs in 1 month and her stomach is flawless. All of us mothers know that surgery had to have been involved there. Its just funny they try to act like she just worked so hard haha.
9 months later, I still have stretch marks. They don't disappear in a month. And losing 50 lbs in 1 month you would have so much extra skin! I have extra skin and its taken me 7 months to drop 50!
Whatever.. good for rich people haha.
I'm just looking forward to my progress pics and seeing how far I've come with actual work.

Where are my work outs?

Well today we walked to and from church. Its about a 10-15 min walk each way..and I push a stroller. So that's a slight calorie burn. I need to get back into my Comcast work out though. I'm growing so lethargic. I just don't feel like doing anything!
I don't really know what to do about it either.
I guess its just a passing rut. At least I'm doing well to stick to my diet.
Maybe this break is necessary since after I'm done nursing I actually will need to work out!
At least for now, I'm glad my clothes are fitting better. Well, that they fit period! I never dreamt of wearing size 8s again!

Other than my walk..I had banana pancakes for breakfast. A turkey dog with a bun and ketchup, baked potato with light butter and light sour cream, a deviled egg, a tomato with mozzerela, and a few potato chips for lunch. Without the chips and deviled egg, that's a moderately healthy meal.
Then half of a warm brownie with one scoop of Jamaican ice cream on it. There was whip cream and chocolate syrup. So I think that's my extent of cheating for the week. Though the website says I ate 410 cals. That pretty much completes my food intake for the day! I'll just fuel up on water and go to bed early.
Its so hard when I count cals and eat most of them for lunch.

Hopefully I have a great progress pic Tues! I'm very impatient to take the pic and my measurements this week!

Weekends here!!

Today Scots family is coming over for lunch. Then we are all going to his baseball game at the (I think) triple A field in Indiana. Hopefully he does really well today! I know the team his is playing against made really rude and childish comments about Scots team
I keep hoping he will join a different league. Seriously, these guys are worse than teenage girls. That's all I can even compare them to. I get tired of all the drama.
The diet is still going great!! Exercise could be better though. I think I can reach my goal in two months if I begin my work out routines again. Scot asked me to work out with him last night but I was so exhausted. Its not easy sharing a bed with a 9 month old for a week. I love her but its like sleeping with a trex. If you make any movement they're up and after you.
Scot also wanted me to drink with him last night, but I respectfully declined. Its getting easier not to drink, actually. I'm so so so close to my goal!!
I'm sure at some point I'll cave and want to drink again but I'm just really loving this progress!! I never thought I'd be in the 140s again so this is really a dream come true for me. Sometimes when I get on the scale and see the progress I've made I want to happy cry. Maybe someday I will, like when I reach my goal and take my final progress pic. So close!

Weigh in and retook measurements

I wanted to take my measurements in the morning since that's what I've been doing. I'm not sure how I got my bottom number yesterday. Today I'm 36-31-36.
I wish I had someone else who knows how to do it right do it for me.
I'll update with my weigh in just as soon as I can get to the scale. I slept good last night but am still nervous that I've made no progress!
Update**
146.4 lbs

Found me a tape measure!

Normally I measure in the morning before I eat anything. But I just now found a tape measure so nows better than never!
I believe last week I was
36-32-36
Today I am:
36-31.5-35.75
Not too bad!
Weighing in tomorrow!
Have to be below 147.5 for weekly progress! Not sure what to expect tho. Just really really hoping. I want to meet my goal!

No tape measure!

Can't measure myself today. So hopefully next week I'll see a big change. Still don't know what to expect for tomorrow's weigh in. As long as I'm below what I was last Friday, I'll be happy. I dont expect to be below 146 because my cheat day came at an odd and unexpected time! Haha. I'll do my best tho. I think we decided to cut out the drinking and instead walk around town after lunch. That will be extremely helpful!
And I still get to wear a dress. Nothing but pluses on this day!!!
I might even go home this evening.
Happy birthday to my sister Kellie! Here's to a great day!

Hump day

Today I went to Applebee's w my mom and ate a Greek goddess wedge salad + French onion soup. It was soooo soooo good. The only problem was it was between 800-900 cals I think. And so I didn't get to eat much the rest of the day. I'm so hungry. Yesterday I had tons of sushi, a few drinks, and bar food. Ended up going over my cal limit by probably 500 something.
Tomorrow is my sisters birthday and we are going to lunch to celebrate. I do think I will budget myself. It shouldn't be too hard. It'll probably make for another long day tho. We might go grocery shopping tonight for stuff to make gluten free fruit pizza. At least I'll know the calories I eat pretty precisely.
I'm hoping my weigh in day on Fri will be pretty good but idk what to expect.

Progress pic day

I can't find my week one pic so just scroll back and compare these to two weeks ago. Again, weight is 146.2

Night time confession..

After over 5 straight months of intense dieting, I'm growing weary of it! All I want right now is a big juicy burger with tons of sauce and toppings, loaded french fries, and loaded nachos from fuddruckers!!
I'm so tired of dieting. I want to pig out so bad! Staying strong, though. Progress pic tomorrow.

Weighed myself today

My new low weight is 146.2 lbs. That makes me believe I'm finally out of the 150s and never looking back! Yay! That's a great feeling.
Still feeling kind of sick today. I don't know if I got the stomach flu or if the wine just messed up my stomach. I guess that's what happens when you aren't use to drinking that much!
Scot bought me some sweets to make me feel better. I was budgeted enough yesterday that it didn't hurt my diet. I'm going to track my progress this week to see if I take a cheat day on Thurs. I think I can budget so I won't have to, though.
When i lose 1.2 lbs and reach 145, my goal reward will be chi tung. Its the best hibachi grill restaurant I've been to!
Hopefully that is a restaurant reward that Scot will want to honor. I remember asking him about 40 lbs ago if he'd honor them and he said yes. I'm not sure he actually expected me to reach any of these goals, though. Honestly, I'm not sure I believed it either. At one point, I had accepted the fact I might be over weight forever. I'm so glad I proved myself wrong! Now I only have 16.2 lbs to go until I've reached my ultimate goal! 53.8 down, 16.2 to go!
So excited!
I read somewhere that when you stop nursing, you immediately lose 15 lbs.
Not sure if that's true, since I haven't yet been in that position, but we will see!
I kind of feel like you would gain weight because the body isn't burning 500 extra cals a day, but who knows..
I'm just going to try my hardest to reach my goal by October 19.
Maybe then Scot will want to get a gym membership with me. I'll figure it out. Things are good right now!

Sunday!!!

I got my ring! Yay! So excited! I ended up drinking wine last night to celebrate. I drank the whole bottle.. yikes! Luckily I drank Gatorade before and after so the hangover wasn't the worst I've had. I'll be drinking again Thursday so if my weight hasnt spiked, it will that night! I'm going to try to budget my cals anyway.
I don't fit into my red dress as nice as I'd like yet. I'm going to hopefully wear it at my engagement party
We haven't started planning it, but we know its something we want to do! I'm excited. Things are pretty great at the moment! I'll post a pic of my ring. I love it!

Weigh in. New clothes!

I didn't get much sleep last night so I was very surprised to be 147.5 lbs for my weigh in!
Then I went shopping w Jadyn, my sister, and my grandma. I thought I might fit tight into a 10, but I'm actually a comfortable 8! So many nice surprises today!!!
I have gone from a 16 to a size 8 in 7 months. That's about 2 sizes a month I think. I'll be in my size 5s before it gets too cold, I hope.
I'm very excited!!!
I've been eating fruits and salads and eggs and stuff like that. And I haven't had alcohol in a week so that was definitely the culprit of my weight loss halt!
I'm going to red lobster for lunch today, but I'm going to portion my meal out. No cheat day for me! I'm too excited about my progress!

Measurements mid-july!

36-32-36
so my bottom number went down 1. It seems like I'm mostly losing in the upper back region and the hip region. First I was losing around the middle so it looks like the rest of me is catching up!
I can't wait to weigh in tomorrow! I really feel like my body is starting to cooperate with its new lifestyle again.
Maybe by the time Scot gets my ring I'll be 145 or UNDER and be able to wear that red dress!
I think the halt in my weight loss was mostly caused from drinking several days those 2 weeks.
I don't really have plans to drink until possibly the 25th (my sisters birthday) but that isn't 100%.
She wants me and my mom to go out with her that night, which would be great! But I'd have no one to watch my daughter.
Usually if I have plans like that I would give her to my sister or my mom! So you can see the predicament.
Scot hasn't been laid off yet, either. So he couldn't watch her even for a little bit.
I'm not really in the mood for drinking, anyway. Would rather so how much weight I can lose by the time I get my ring. I've already been sized for it. So, hopefully my fingers wouldn't shrink much more. They'd resize for free but its such a hassle. And when I finally get my ring I don't want to have to give it back to the store for any amount of time!

Update

I skipped yesterdays before/after pic because I'm 151.6 just like last week. There is no point in taking the same pic twice! I'm going to my dads today so I should have the same measuring rope tomorrow as last week. I don't expect much of a difference, though.
Shopped with my mom for 3 hours yesterday and had a great time. We didn't get as much of the house clean as I was wanting but it's OK! She helped with the basics and as long as Scot doesn't trash the house when I'm gone we should be fine.
I hope he gets my ring while I'm gone. I can't wait to see what he picked.
Also, I didn't wear my red dress the other day so that's why no pic posted.
I will wear it the day I get my ring, hopefully. He says he's gonna do it in a special way :)
By the way here's the pic from bon jovi.

Engaged!!

The big surprise involved a proposal July 20th but my boyfriend proposed to me yesterday morning! I'll post a photo of the ring asap. He said he's been saving up for it for 6 months but can't quite afford the one he wants yet. But said he can't wait any longer! We already started planning. Though the date isn't until September 2015. That's not official, it could change. I was kind of hoping to try for baby #2 around then so Jadyn won't be significantly older.
I'll just talk to him about it. If I want a fall wedding there's little negotiation though. We have to save up some money for this. It doesn't help he's getting laid off within the next couple weeks.
Anyway..
Today we are going to maggianos and I'm going to give him some gifts. One includes engraved stemless champagne flutes that says "Just Engaged Scot&Kathy".
I'm so excited. We have only told a few close family and friends.
Maybe we can snap pics tonight and show more people. I can't wait to see the ring :).
So I'm going to try to wear the red dress. Wanted to be 145 but am 151.5 today.
That's my new high weight since I cheat dayed 2 days ago. Not awful. I wore a similar dress to bon jovi and I think I looked great!!! I'll post pics of both when I get home.

Friday weigh in

So last weeks weigh in was right after my cheat day. So this is going to look extreme.
Today I'm 150.4 lbs.
I'm so close to getting out of the 150 range. I'm going to a bon jovi convert tonight, but don't think I'll drink.
I'm way too close now!
The big day is in 8 days. I don't know if I'll be able to drop 5.4 lbs by then, most likely not.
I'm still going to try very hard!
I'm very proud of the progress I've made this far.
I know at 160 I tried on a sequenced dress and it looked pretty good. Being 10 lbs lighter, hopefully it looks even better.
it's very short but I can just put on leggings.
I'm thinking of wearing it tonight.
I'll try it on and if I don't feel comfortable I'll wait to wear it on my birthday.
I actually bought it to wear on my birthday in 2011 and I couldn't even get it over my chest.
My chest has obviously grown from nursing and pregnancy and all that so it has to be my back that's decreased in size.
I shudder to think how big I must have really gotten.
50 lbs is a lot of weight.
Just 20 more to go!

Different tape measure

I used a real tape rope today and my measurements were insanely different!
I believe they were 36-32-37 or something.
I wasn't sure if I should record that. Considering I won't have access to it every Thursday. Still I guess its better to know!!
I still haven't dropped any weight but I'm super sick today. It'll probably make me lose a little bit for tomorrow.
Only 9 days til the big day! I have to lose 6.5 lbs in 9 days. Ha! Right..
Stupid plateaus.
The more I exercise, the less I lose.
Sure it might be muscle, but my scales wrong with the %s.
Hopefully the water % is right.
At least the lbs part is right.
Can't wait to weigh in on it tomorrow.
I'll actually get good sleep tonight so that should help some!

Stuck in 150s!

So I went to the gym yesterday and found out my fat % is wrong on my scale. Yesterday I was 30%.
I don't mind I just wish mine was accurate!
And as my title says..I'm stuck in 150s. Even after burning 1200 cals yesterday in nursing and exercise! Somehow I gained a pound.
Probably because I hardly slept.
I need a good night sleep before Fridays weigh in.
I think my measurements will go well tomorrow.
Going to the gym again today. Hopefully I will be more rested by then. I'm so tired!!!

2nd july progress pic!

I'm still 151.6. I'm really afraid I won't meet my new goal :(
I have 11 says to lose 6.6 pounds!
I'm going to see my dad today. He and my sister want to go to the gym and then a Mongolian grill.
I'll really have to work my butt off!
Today is progress pics day. I see a major difference. I look forward to measuring Thursday and my normal weigh in day

Weekend almost over :(

I weighed myself on my scale today. I am still losing, so the holiday didn't absolutely murder me!
The fat and water % are super questionable! First it said I'm 22% fat the went up to 24% in just a matter of seconds.
I'll be going to my dads tomorrow. I think his scale is pretty accurate with fat %. It also takes water and muscle.
I am 151.6 today. I don't want to weigh in every day, but I only have 13 days til the big day now.
I think it will keep me on track!
I need to lose 6.6 lbs in 13 days. That's about half a pound a day!

I think I need a couple days of hard workouts and very minimal cheat days! No drinking, for sure. I think I can hold off for 2 weeks after drinking like 4 days this week. I may not have gotten drunk all those days, but alcohol does not help to drop pounds.

I'm 1.6 lbs from checking off my next goal. I didn't do it last time because I knew it was just dehydration!
When I get to 150 without alcohol, I'll check it off. Then I will say I left the 150s and am never looking back!
I look forward to saying that. Its incredible how far I've come.

Some days are so hard, though. Like yesterday I really wanted some cheesecake. Instead, I got a Greek chicken salad.
And sometimes after reaching my calorie limit I'm still super hungry. But the rewards are worth it!!!

As of now I have lost 48.4 lbs this year.
I have gone down about 6 pant sizes!
from 16s to 10s.
I still want to get in my 4/5s though.
Still, I'm enjoying every step of the journey!

And I can't wait to try on the red dress!

Sleepyyy

Went to ribfest last night and didn't get to bed until 1:30am. Then woke up with Jadyn at 8am. Really not awful. But I'm still exhausted!
I weighed myself this morning and I'm 152.2. Was able to knock off a couple lbs yesterday by being on my feet and sweating in the heat. Gross but beneficial!

2 weeks to lose 7.2 lbs! I don't know if it'll happen. I have to try very hard to make it.
I've been losing (except this week) 1-2 lbs a week. So 3.6 a week just seems pretty difficult to accomplish. Not impossible, just difficult.

Next weekend we have a bon jovi concert to go to. I'm excited for that!
I'll just have to prevent myself from drinking.
I drank way too much this week. It was a week of weakness!!

Next week will be better :)

Addition * * *
- I'm now home so I have my tape measure.
39-32-36.5

Down half an inch in the bottom number!

New high. :(

I didn't get drunk yesterday but I ate too much! I wasn't going to weigh in but probably should.
154.2 lbs.
I've gained 2 lbs this is a week. I'll just have to work harder now. I have to lose 9 lbs to get to 145. I never meet my goals!!! Grrrr so frustrating!
I'm sure the multiple cheat days didn't help me. Hopefully if I buckle down now it will shed fast.

Going to ribfest tonight. I'll save a bunch of cals for it. Hopefully being on my feet will help.

4th of July!

I have not been able to find a tape measure today. Its looking like I'm going to miss a measuring week.

I'm going to have to make sure to measure my food intake very carefully so I don't skyrocket over my budget!
We have shishkabobs, stuffed burgers, stuffed turkey dogs, baked potatoes, BLT dip w garlic bread. Guacamole! Ugh..
Why does tomorrow have to be a weigh in day!?

I should just skip my weigh in day but I don't know. I've taken like 3 cheat days this week. And only have 2 weeks and 2 days to get down to 145 and look decent in the dress. (Hopefully look decent).

I really need to do crunches! DDR for now, I guess

Everyone have a fun and safe 4th of July!!

Holidays

I cheated yesterday and drank quite a bit. I weighed myself to see the damage and came in at 149.2 lbs.
Again...dehydration is so deceiving!
Still, I worked out today and stayed active. I'm hoping that will help me to keep the weight off after I hydrate.
Holidays are so hard. We went grocery shopping for tomorrow and I know I'm going to go hog wild!!!
I am going to have to DDR a lot!

Good news=
I finally fit in size 10!
My mom had some old caprese and I wore them today. No muffin top!
Woohoo!!!

Been getting tons of compliments. My step dad told me he hasn't seen me this small in years!
I said I know because at college I caught the freshman 15 like 3 times. Haha.
Not really, but the drinking over the years adds up.

It feels fantastic to wear clothes I've had for years and have felt too insecure to wear. It really feels so incredible.

I wish my skin looked better but I will focus on that after i am done nursing. Pregnancy truly does change the body
Its OK though. I'll take the marks and sags to have a healthy and beautiful baby girl. She's worth every wrinkle lol.

Tomorrow is measure day. I am at my parents so I might not have a tape measure. Will try, though.
Otherwise will just have more drastic results next week :)

Finally good before/after

Week 1-week 10- week 20

Going to my moms tonight. Need to start exercising more if want to reach 145 in a couple weeks!!!!

Weekly high, 1st of July

I was scared because I took 2 cheat days in a row, again!

Saturday I was good until dinner. Then I ate sooooooo much of monicals BBQ chicken pizza! Afterwards, went to Scots band practice and had a tall half n half twisted tea and 6-7 light beers through out the night. Its wayyyyy less than I use to drink but I got pretty drunk from that.
Then yesterday had casino buffet, which was far too delicious, and rare, to measure! And I had a bloody Mary to ward off my hangover. Then last night ate a bunch of guacamole and chips.
At least avacado is extremely healthy.

I was terrified to step on the scale and see all the work I undid, but it went well!
I'm 152.6 today. 53.9% water (getting closer to my 56% goal) and 24.9% fat.

I think I only went up .2 lbs from last weeks low! And I'm guessing my cycle has a bit to do with it?

Well, I'm just glad that it will be easy to get back on track. I have 19 days left to lose 7.6 lbs.
If I make it to 145, and still don't look great in the dress.. I'll just be happy to have reached one of my goals for once!