Update

It's been a while so I thought I would update where I'm at.
I've been fluctuating with all of the holiday temptations, not going lie. Today I am 134.2. I've been exercising more lately, just to prevent a huge gain from my excessive eating.
I'm still in size 6 jeans, so I'm glad about that. Although, I would like to be in my old 5s by summer. I think I could pull it off.
My only concern is that I got my wedding dress and it already fits perfectly!
I don't want to have to pay to alter it in.
Mostly because we have no money.
Scots got a short term job. It started Friday and ends tomorrow. He might be able to help shovel snow for money but its not like there would be money to set aside for the wedding. I'll worry about that when it's actually a problem, though. Right now it fits great and I love it!

Scots progress is still slow. As of yesterday he was like 183.6 or something. He hasn't been really dieting though. If he got back on the diet I think the next 10 lbs would come off in a couple weeks. Guys are lucky like that!

Between holidays

I've gained 5 lbs. I'm back to 135. I'm going to try my best to do better for the next 3 weeks! I bought my wedding dress online for black Friday. It was 50% off and I couldn't pass it up. Its a tight one so I need to get back into exercising and eating right so I look my best in it!

Time to get serious again! It's so hard at this time of the year but I need to at least try. I feel like I got binging on leftovers out of my system. Also, have been drinking too much lately so that's gonna stop.
I'm thinking of asking for the insanity workout for Christmas. I've heard great things about it.

Scot hasn't weighed himself today but yesterday he was 184.8. So he's down almost 10 lbs from his start. He still has 20 to go.

After cheating

I am back up to 134 lbs. I feel like I'm just going to keep fluctuating between 131-134. Will continue trying, though. I'm not giving up! Scot has an early doctor appointment so not sure his weigh in today. Hopefully he's had better luck than I did this weekend.
With the holidays getting so close it's just hard not to binge on cookies and pies. Thanksgiving will be a cheat day but I need to try to be good until then. Cookies in moderation are fine but I've been having like 4-5 a day. Need to cut back!

End of the week weigh in

We have both done well on our diets the past few days. I am back down to 131.4 lbs and my nuisance started so once that's over I will drop a couple more.
Scot is at a new low of 183.8! He's lost 9.2 lbs so far.
He has 18.8 lbs to go and I have 6.4 to go.
I think we can reach that by January or February. With the holidays so close its going to be so hard not to cheat!
We will do our best though. Hopefully I will remember to do progress pics Tuesday. Have a great weekend!

Ugh..

I'm still slacking so bad at keeping up with this blog!
Scots weigh in today was 185.2, a new low!
I'm still at 133. I've slowed down because I sneak sweets a lot more than I should.
My nuisance hasn't arrived yet tho so I could also be retaining water. I will see within the next couple of days!
My new goal is 125 lbs. Scots is 165.

First November weigh in

Scot is 187 and I am 134.
We are getting along better now. Had a fantastic Halloween!
We are struggling with the diet on and off but I really am determined to get back on track

Temptation

Today Scot is 186.5 lbs and I'm 132.8 lbs.
We were going to get pizza. I don't know if that's going to happen, though. We go so many days being good and then fight again.
All because I'm updating my blog. I have not had much time to do so this past week. He is getting ready to go to the doctor. Apparently I'm an asshole for taking five minutes to write my blog and not clean the house instead. This stress makes this situation so hard and after enough time my feelings start shutting off. I don't like being treated like a child. I just want out of this right now. I'm going to sycamore Wednesday and I might try staying awhile.
I was raised to clean up after myself. He was raised to have women clean up after him.  Why is it so hard to clean up after yourself? Jadyn is one story. She's a baby. Why do I need to clean up after everyone in this house? He doesn't even work. Yet I have to wipe his ass.
Its not fair to be happy and then have it constantly ripped away by a nagging ass

Where have I been?

Cheating nonstop!!!
I'm up to 133.6 and Scot is like 188.
So, back to the buckle!
I have a cheat day coming this Wednesday, but other than that I need to get back into this. Once I hit my goal, I just enjoyed for about 2 weeks. Now I need to get back down.
We have decided that I will continue to nurse the baby for another 6 months. We figure the antibodies will help keep her healthy through the winter. Another plus is that I will continue to burn the extra 500 a day for another half year.
I would like to be done by the wedding so I don't have to worry about pumping or anything on our big day.
Everything is going wonderful here! I can't wait to take Jadyn trick or treating!

New high weights

Scot 187, me 131.8

Still a process but inching closer!

Day after cheat day

After our cheat day, Scot gained .4 lbs. He is 186.2..not bad for all the carp we ate, trust me.
I am 130 lbs! I have officially reached my goal weight!!! I am so excited to share that!!!
I am going to stick to this diet how I have been doing since I am now beginning the weening process of nursing. I don't know how that will effect my weight, but if it results in a gain I still want to be 130. So I might try to get to 125ish so I can afford to gain back a couple. Scot is doing great! He's still dripping a little over 2 lbs a week, he has 21.2 lbs to go. That should take about 2 months to reach. 2 months is much quicker than 11! Feeling awesome!!!

Weekly low

Happy first birthday to my beautiful baby girl! Today is going to be a cheat day in her honor.
Scot weighs 185.8 lbs and I'm still 130.2 lbs.
I haven't exactly reached my goal but I'm so close.
But Scot has lost about 7 lbs. Yay!
He's getting there! 20 lbs to go

Measurements

I haven't taken Scots measurements but I took mine this morning.
35-28-34.
Its about half an inch difference from 2-3 weeks ago.
Scot has been sticking to the diet but not getting on the scale, we haven't done progress pics, and I've never taken his measurements so I have no idea what kind of progress he's making. Will update when I find out. I am not going to have a good weigh in tomorrow after taking 4 cheat days this past week.

Getting back to work

I took another cheat meal last night after Scots surgery. I still weigh less than yesterday though. I'm 133.2 today. I don't think I will reach 130 by Friday anymore!
I'm going to get back on my diet today and start my bridal workout routine. I can post about that. My body just needs some toning now.

Not as planned

We ended up having a cheat weekend. Today Scot is 189.8 lbs. I think he will lose a few by Friday. I went to get some new pants and I am in size 6 now. It was surprising!
It is getting way too cold to wear shorts but I might fit in my old 5s now.
I can try them on next time I'm at my mom's.
I'm still sticking to the diet. My cheat weekend sent me back up to 133.8 lbs but at least I know I'm below 135! I think I already checked that off my list anyway.
Today Scot is having surgery on his hand so he can't eat until this evening.
That will probably make him drop some lbs pretty quick.
Things are going pretty well! Actually enjoying the cooler weather and fall festivities!

Weighing in!

My phone broke, hence the no post yesterday. I'm writing this one from the computer for once. I'll get a new phone today!
I still didn't take measurements because it was just a rough day yesterday. One thing I can say is that I have no clothes that fit me. Even my shirts that were fitted before are baggy now. I don't have any money to buy new clothes, so that kind of stinks!
My weigh in today is 130.2 lbs. I'm only .2 lbs away from my goal! I fully believe that I can reach that by my next weigh in! Then what will I do? Maintain or lose a couple more?
Scot is doing OK on his diet. He's had a few slip ups, but he's a lb less than last weeks weigh in. It's not the 2 lbs a week that he was wanting, but if you don't stick to it you can't expect the best results!
He injured his pinky last week playing football, so he's going to need surgery and it has become somewhat of a problem. He acts like he lost a leg.
Cheat day hasn't been established yet. Tomorrow we are going to a pumpkin patch with his mom. Then Sunday we are going to the Burgoo (no idea about spelling) in Utica. Both will have lots of fun food choices, so it's a rough decision! It'd probably be easier to buy a couple treats tomorrow and save them to eat Sunday, but Scot doesn't have the will power that I do. He also would not save me anything! haha.
I wish he'd lose weight a little bit faster so that it would be motivation to stick with it. He's always sort of fluctuated between 187-190ish, so he probably doesn't see this as much accomplishment. I think that once he's in the low 180s it'll start to sink in a little more.
He does do work outs, but he thinks that he can eat whatever he wants (or just guess on food measurements and calories) and that working out a few minutes will make up for it.
It's harder without my cellphone to track with the loseit app and myfitnesspal.
I have to write down our caloric intake on a piece of paper. I'm not going to even attempt to guess what we burn exercising, though. I'll just have to wait until my phone comes to catch up with all that.
Hopefully it comes today like it's supposed to.
Yesterday was a rough day. Me and Scot fought a lot. Mostly because I wasn't feeling well and he decided that instead of staying home to help me with the baby so that I could rest, he wanted to go out to lunch with some of his family. It just really upset me and it escalated to the point where he broke my phone. So, that's just kind of stress that I'm dealing with at the moment. I really want our family to work. I don't want a broken home, like what I had to grow up with. It's just that sometimes I think that there's someone out there that might respect and appreciate me more. The good times are great, and the bad times are worse than awful. I just don't know what to do. I need some time to myself, but that just isn't going to happen. It would have been perfect if I could drop the baby off with my mom today and go to my friends. She has the apartment to herself tonight. It would be just what I need. Girls night, no stress, just time to breathe. But, we have family portraits in the morning, so that can't happen. I hope another opportunity opens soon that I can take advantage of.

Don't get me wrong. Through all of this stress, I am so ecstatic that I'm almost at my goal weight! .2 lbs is just a toothpick away! I'm so excited, and still in a little disbelief that I've actually done it! When I was 200 lbs, it was just a day dream that I might come this far. Now, here I am! I've made it reality! That's amazing to me. It is definitely worth it. Someday's were hard to pass up the extra food jam packed with all those calories. Someday's I was just so frustrated I wanted to say, "Screw this!"
But, I'm so glad that I didn't give up! I'm so glad that I stayed strong and made such amazing progress.
I just think I need to get out of this house. Sometimes it feels like this house is poison. I could be in the best mood ever, then after being stuck here for a couple days, with no outlet..I start losing energy and change into a bitter resentful person. I can't wait until we can move from here.

Progress pics

These are almost a 5 lb difference from last week...

The day after

Today I weigh 134.2 lbs and Scot is at 191.2 lbs.
So I gained 2 from yesterday and he went up 3. So those numbers are our new weekly highs. We did eat aloooot yesterday! I think it'll come off quick, it usually does.
I think in 2 weeks I'll be at my goal for sure. Just in time for my baby's first birthday!! Yay I'm so excited!!

Well my back is still hurting which makes exercise a little difficult.. but we will have to push through. Even if its just some light cardio. Scot mentioned ordering pizza today. Its not a cheat day so that definitely means we need to exercise!

Cheat day!!

Here is our weekly progress:
Today I am 132.2 and Scot is 188.2.
My monthly nuisance is here so I have a feeling I'll be right around my goal weight in a week or two.
Scot lost 5.2 lbs in his first week! Yay!!!
I'm so happy he's seeing progress.
Today is our cheat day and I'm sure it'll make things fluctuate, so I will just record every Fri (possibly Saturday too). I write our new weights on the calendar in our bedroom on Fridays though.
Its going to be a pretty big cheat day! Pizza for lunch, red lobster for dinner..
Hopefully it won't do too much damage!

Weigh in Friday!

It seems Scot and I are both on a plateau. I am going to weigh in tomorrow as well. But, I'm still 133.2 lbs. That hasn't changed for a couple weeks. I'm not sure if I'll ever lose these last 3 lbs! :/
Scot is 189.4 lbs, which seemingly hasn't changed in 2 days. Still, his first week on the diet and he's lost double his intended weekly loss weight! That is still great! If he lost 4 lbs a week, he'd be at his goal in 6 weeks. I'm sure that seems like a long time to him, but I've been doing this for 8 months and even that has flown by! Sticking to it through the doubts and frustrations is the key to success!
Tomorrow is our cheat day, so I will see how that affects his progress. Hopefully it'll break his plateau and be beneficial like mine usually are. I say "usually" because I'm stuck at 133.2.
I'll take that with a billion smiles over 200 lbs though!
I'm just so close yet it keeps running from me! Sigh...

Thursday night

My daughters doctor called me back and said that continuing to nurse her is perfectly safe. So I guess I'll continue for the next 16 days!
I'm still a little nervous about it but I fully trust her doctor.

We didn't have time to weigh Scot this morning or do our measurements. Tomorrow is weigh in day though and I'm really excited for it! I am hoping within the next couple weeks that I'll be at my goal weight! Also just excited to see how much Scot managed to drop in his first week.
We are discussing our cheat day. It is sounding like either pizza on Saturday or using a red lobster gift card. Either one sounds great to me!

I didn't get to exercise tonight with Scot. He did a 20 min kick boxing routine. I had to relax a little.
My back is so stiff it is almost unbearable. Tomorrow I might try icing it.

Good and bad

The good news is Scot had another good weigh in. 189.4 today!
After Friday I think I will just have him weigh in weekly.
But that's 4 lbs in 4 days! Awesome that he's really sticking to this and seeing those results!

Bad news (for me) is that due to have a silver filling removed, I may need to stop nursing a couple weeks earlier than I'd planned. Its only 2 weeks but the suddenness of this is a little emotional for me. Had I known, I would have waited another month to have the filling replaced.

I don't know how it will effect my weight loss but I guess its time I find out!
I'm waiting on a call back from the pediatrician for her advice, but online resources suggest not having silver fillings removed if u are pregnant, nursing, or plan on being pregnant within 18 months.

I will update on her answer if anyone else stumbles along my blog and has a similar concern!

My favorite month

October 1st is here! And I have my first October progress pics. Browse back through previous entries to compare..
I'd like to snap Scot a first progress pic but not sure it is going to happen. He's refusing to get out of bed and barks at me like a rabid dog. If he wants my help then great, if not.. good riddance! Hopefully he will get up and out of his funk. But for now..here are my new pics..OKk he got up. Today he's 190.4 lbs. So in 2 days he has lost 3 lbs! Here are his 1st progress pics...

An addition...

Well Scot decided that he wants to lose weight, too. I downloaded myfitnesspal app on my phone for him. I'd put him on loseit but can only do one person at a time. This way I can keep track of both!
He wants to lose 2 lbs a week and started out at 193.4 lbs. That's pretty close, perhaps even exactly, what I was when I started this blog!
So he has to eat 1430 calories a day to achieve that goal. He pre-dedicated himself to at least 20 min of vigorous exercise a day. We did a work out last night and it really was rough.
He ended up burning 19 more cals than he ate yesterday!
I use to weigh in every day and stopped when the plateaus began coming more frequently. I'm having him weigh in every day for a while just so I can see what we are doing right and what we need to work on. His first day weigh in is 191 lbs.
He went down 2.4 lbs on just the first day! Awesome!!!
I'm so glad he's doing this with me. Now that I'm so close to my goal, I'll be doing the 20 min a day exercise with him and it'll help me to stay on track and tone up.
Also, I want to start my bridal workout routine soon. Possibly tomorrow!

By the way, Scots goal is 165 lbs. So, it won't be as drastic as mine. But still will record. Perhaps I will have him join my progress pic Tues, measure in Thurs, and weigh in Fri!

I'm excited he's trying this with me and truly hope he sticks with it. Wish us luck!

Checking one off!

After yesterdays cheat day, my new high weight is 135 lbs! I can finally check it off of my list! Yay!! So exciting!!
The not so yay is how upset my stomach is. I need a good cleansing but still nursing for a couple more weeks.
I'll do a good cleansing ASAP. I can just imagine the toxins in my body right now. I'd probably lose 5 lbs just from that!
I am so close to reaching my goal. I know I'll do it by Halloween. I'll finally be able to wear a cute costume!!! (If I can afford one). Yay!

Cheat day!!

I'm sure the aftermath of today will not be pretty but its my cheat day. And that means casino buffet!!! And mnms for breakfast :)

Weighing in to kick off Friday!

I was pretty close in my guess. Today I weigh in at 133.2 lbs! My exercise did a lot for me yesterday. I made apple crisp in the slow cooker and felt guilty for eating slightly more than I'd intended!
133.2 is a good weigh in. I've gone down 1.2 lbs from last Friday.
My cheat day is not until tomorrow. We will be going to the casino for the buffet. We keep getting free vouchers in the mail, so at least I can replace restaurant rewards that I cannot afford with these meals!
I feel like every cheat day is rewarding myself for my weekly progress.
Since I've started the lose it app, I've lost 60 lbs. But since January 1st, I've lost 67.
When creating my goals, I never believed that I could lose 70 lbs! But once the weight started coming off, I was determined to complete my task. I still have 3.2 lbs to go and I will keep working until I lose it. Then, I will continue to work to not gain the weight back!
A friend of mine sent me a work out routine to use for brides before their wedding day. I will be starting that soon as I now have less than 1 year before my big day! So excited to begin! I will post about it.

No change

My measurements haven't changed. I most likely have been losing in my legs again. I have noticed a big change in them!
I am not sure that I'll be under 133 tomorrow, but I think I'll be under last weeks weigh in. Not too bad after taking 2 cheat days this week.
I think we are going to buffet casino on Saturday and possibly Oktoberfest. I'm not sure about the second part. I'm not a big dark beer drinker. It'd still be neat to see.
Things are going well. I think my baby is close to walking. I give her a couple weeks, tops. That'll up my exercise!

Day late progress pic

I think I'm about 2 lbs less than I was for last weeks progress pic. I don't see much of a difference, but I'd like to keep it up. Scroll through past Tuesdays to see the difference.

Going to maggianos for lunch today. I'll either just have a salad or I'll eat half of my meal. I'm not taking a cheat day until Saturday. We have another casino buffet to use.

The days that blend together..

I forgot to take my weekly progress pic! I already have breakfast and lunch in me so it'd do no good now!
I guess I will just have to remember to do it in the morning.
After 2 cheat days, this is the second I'm back on my diet. And its the first that my stomach doesn't feel like its going to pop! The price to pay for eating truck loads of fried food is pretty awful. I'm not sure if it always had that affect on me and I was just use to it or if it is a change due to my lifestyle change.
I feel better on days I portion out my meals.
I haven't chosen my next cheat day just yet. It won't be before Friday though.
Tonight is my last cubs game of the year, we decided we will eat beforehand. So, I won't be tempted to cheat with all the ballpark food! I always over do it there.
If you're counting calories, one meal I recommend is Jack Daniels pulled chicken. Its a microwave meal sold in grocery stores (ours came from jewel). It is 160 cals per serving, and not a bad size serving!! Just get some low cal hamburger buns (ours were 90 a bun) and microwavable Culinary Circle mashed potatoes (160 cals for 1/2 a cup). Very delicious lunch, and totalled me under 500 cals! I like to save 1000 calories for dinner, so it was perfect. It was big enough to satisfy and yet left me my 1000 for later. (I had a pumpkin scone for breakfast, it was about 135 cals). I know they say you should eat your biggest meal in the morning, but I say if what you are doing is healthy and working for you, who cares what they say?? :)
Go cubs!!!!

Party-time aftermath...

My new high (if I don't continue to rise these next few days) is 137.5 lbs.
I took a cheat weekend instead of a cheat day. There was so much food left over from our party that I honestly couldn't control myself yesterday!
I left the remaining left overs at my moms house so that I wouldn't be tempted to eat it today, too. The good news is that I'm definitely out of the 140s for good. The bad news is that I cannot yet mark 135 off of my list. Sigh..
it feels a little bit like I'm standing still. If I'm not under 133 by Friday I don't know how I'll feel.
I guess I'll have to work extra hard this week to knock off the pounds. Tomorrow we are going to the cubs game (1st in forever..) I know how much walking is involved in that process. Yet I know how much we have been known to eat there. Alcohol isn't really an issue because we don't drink at games. We probably don't have the money for much food anyway so I'm thinking it'll be OK.
I get to relax today and Wednesday and might be going to dinner with my dad Thurs. Not very sure, but maybe. Its his birthday that day but it seems kind of like he doesn't want to go that day.
I don't know..anyway...
The engagement party was amazing! I had so much fun with everyone and cannot wait for future get togethers.
My next short term goal will be for Jadyn's first birthday (10-19)..I would like to be 130 lbs by then.
Since our engagement party was so huge we might be keeping her birthday smaller. It'll be a costume party and I'm excited to dress up! I can't afford a 50 dollar costume from party city. I might just be recycling an oldie.
To reach that goal I have to lose 7.5 lbs in 26 days. I will accept that challenge!

Party time!!!

My last weigh in before the party is 133.8, so I managed to stay below 135! Yay!!! An actual victory!
I'm so excited for tonight! Its going to be a long day setting up, but it'll be worth it!
Its definitely going to be a major cheat day and I'm sure I will spike back over 135, so I can't cross it off my list just yet.
I'm so happy that I managed to come as far as I have in my relationship, in my weight loss, in being a mother..its all so rewarding! But I still have a little ways to go in my weight loss and I expect it'll take about another month to reach my goal.
I'm loving every step of the way, and enjoying my life with my loved ones.
Again, if anyone wants a tool to help them with their weight loss, I strongly recommend LostIt, its an app on androids and probably all other electronics. If you stick to it, you will see results. And one cheat day a week is necessary. It'll help your cravings for every other day of the week. Happy losing and have a fantastic weekend!!

Weigh in Friday!

Well I am still under 135, but today I am 134.4 lbs. That's 1.4 lb more than when I returned from vacation. I wish I hadn't weighed myself that day because then today would be more exciting.
All in all, I still managed to reach my short term goal. I might weigh in tomorrow as well since that's the big day! The cheat portion won't begin until about 5pm anyway. I'm so excited for it!
I finally get to celebrate my engagement! Its going to be so great :)

I think I might wear the red dress that I posted a few days ago. I'm going to try on a few other things tho. We went and got my ring cleaned yesterday so its super dazzling!! I'm just so excited! And its awesome that I've come so far that I feel comfortable wearing a tight form fitting dress, or a flowy one, or anything I want! Its been forever since I felt comfortable enough to do that! This might even be the first time in my life that I am. I'm so glad that I've dedicated myself to these goals and worked hard to reach them! It has paid off in so many ways!

Measurement's

Today I'm 36-29.5-34.5
So in the past few weeks I have lost half an inch in the hips. It isn't as drastic of a change as I was hoping!
Hopefully weighing in tomorrow will make up for it. I don't know though because I'm really sore! As long as I'm 135 or under for Saturday, I'm happy.
I had a longer post typed out but blogger deleted the whole thing when I went to post it and I don't have time to rewrite the whole thing! Just not very excited about today's results and not excited to weigh in tomorrow.

Wonderfully Wednesday!

Last night I did two work outs with Scot. They were very difficult!! He wants to do a work out every night since he's starting his football league on Friday. Let's just say he's a bit more out of shape than the last time he played. A good 30 lbs of a difference! I think it'll be nice getting into a work out routine with him again. It'll help us both.
I'm still sticking to my diet. 1500 cals a day. I usually like to make it so my net cals are below 1000 though. That's when I see best results.
My engagement party is in 3 days now! I'm so excited. I'll finally be able to celebrate with my loved ones. Plus a lot of friends and family will get to see Jadyn who haven't seen her ever or in a very long time. The guest list is at about 50 people. It should be a very great time! It'll be the first time I drink alcohol in over a month. My tolerance has changed with the weight loss so hopefully things don't get too crazy!! It's going to be a great time.
I can't wait to measure in tomorrow. I think it'll be a nice change from last time.

Engagement party dress?

Progress pic!

Wow! I got my days all mixed up. I was certain today was Wednesday. Looks like I'm right on track, though. Here's my progress pic (first in 2 weeks). Thursday I will measure in. Friday I will weigh in and Saturday is my engagement party! Woohoo!
I still need to try on my red dress but if it doesn't work I'll figure it out.

Sunday Sunday :)

Let me count the ways I love you.
#1- my opportunity to have a much better fantasy football week begins today.
#2- minus the rain, this temperature is my happy temperature! I love it so much!
#3- my first weigh in since I left for vacation. As stated, my goal for this September 21st was 135 lbs. Current weight is..(insert drumroll)..... 133 lbs!!

My goal now is just to stay below 135 for September 21st.
I cannot believe I only have 3 lbs left to go! Then what will I do with myself?
New goals will begin. Stamina building exercises. Once I found out I could handle running uphill, I decided I might take it up as a hobby once I reach my weight loss goal. It would pretty much be until it got too cold to stand the outdoors..but I'll need to figure out someway to ward off the holiday weight!
I'm so happy today, its like a dream!

Last full day of vaca!

Yesterday was a major cheat day and due to a storm there was very little exercise involved! I'm so hungry today I don't feel like sticking to my diet.
My engagement party is in only 8 days though and I really want to reach my 135 goal.
I'll just have to exercise as much as I can today to take my mind off of my excessive hunger. Some days this diet is much harder than others!
Not only that but I realized that soon I won't be nursing Jadyn anymore. That's going to make it harder to only drink once a month. Unless I don't have a babysitter. I wouldn't be irresponsible. But that might make my diet even harder. More challenging times lie ahead!
At least if I do actually drop 15 lbs when I stop, I'll have 15 lbs to gain back!
Really, it might be easier than I'm expecting. I'm just very hungry this morning.
Just have to be strong willed and can pull through this!

Vaca day #5

I went on my morning walk already. Burned over 150 calories! Sticking very well to my calorie limit but really wishing I had my scale! I have no clue where my weights at and it's driving me crazy!
I've been sticking pretty close to the scale for the past 7 months.
I don't think I'm going to be able to wait to weigh myself next Friday!! I probably will check Sunday morning. That way I can see any progress or damage or if I've remained the same this week.
I really want to be 135 by my engagement party the 21st, so hopefully I will be around that.
I'm taking a cheat day tomorrow for my parents anniversary. Then I won't take another until the 21st. I'm not sure that I'll look how I want to in my red dress. Hopefully I do but I'm unsure!

Addition**
we had spaghetti for dinner and I was afraid I might've ate more than I intended. So I went on another hike and even ran some of it, uphill, pushing a stroller. It was an incredible work out and I felt like a million bucks!

Vaca day #4

I forgot to take my progress pic this morning. I slept in a little. We rented a pontoon boat this morning. We were out on it for 2 hours.
It did very little for my exercise but I'm still doing well with my diet
Might go on a walk later.
Short entry because my phone is messing up.

Update**
Just went on a 35 min walk uphill pushing a stroller. My legs are still burning. Plus I've been carrying Jadyn upstairs multiple times a day. Numerous stairs. It actually winds me! So I guess my exercise is better than I thought.

Vaca day #3

I stuck close to my diet yesterday. Also we swam in the lake down by the dock. It really is a work out! I didn't even realize because I haven't swam in so long. It felt really good. Plus the water was nice.
This morning we went on a walk down to the Marina. With all the up and down hills it was also a great work out!! So far I'm doing well to remain active and not go over my calorie goal!
I will post progress pics tomorrow.

Vaca day #2

I had my cheat day yesterday and ate more than I'm proud to say!
I just have to keep reminding myself that cheat days are important and I shouldn't feel guilty.
Its so beautiful here at Norris lake!
I'm going to use it as motivation to stay active and reach my goal.
Besides, I have 13 days to reach 135 lbs.
I know I can do it and I'm so excited!!!
Without my scale this week I will have no idea how far I have to go.
As of my last weigh in I only had 1.8 lbs to go.
6.8 to go until my final goal!! I was laying in bed last night thinking of how far I've come. It just seems so unreal. It hasn't fully hit me that I'm actually in the 130 pound range!
When I put my size 5s on, they did come up but they were just a little tight.
I'm going to wait to wear them when they are comfortable. That will probably be in about a month.
My second cheat day will most likely be this Thursday. Its my parents anniversary so we are dressing up and going somewhere nice to celebrate. I figure its cheat day worthy! Besides, I can't weigh in Friday anyway.
It really is going to drive me nuts!! Time to go out and snap some pictures!! Happy Sunday!

Vaca day #1

We drove 10 hours yesterday. McDonalds wrap for lunch, qdoba taco salad for dinner. Then stayed at my uncles farm in Lexington Kentucky. I slept pretty well. The baby slept through the night in an old antique cradle that has been in the family for generations! Pretty neat!

For breakfast we were made scrambled eggs and toast and blueberry bread. It was very good. Of course there was no way to accurately track the calories so today will be my cheat day. I saw a scale in the bathroom and was very tempted to check my weight this morning. I successfully fought the urge!

I really would like to be surprised when I get home about my progress!

We are back on the road headed for Norris lake Tennessee! Just a 3 hour drive today. The baby is already napping. I think I'll put in my book on tape and just relax!! Great start to vacation if you ask me!

Plus if stress was a factor to my halt in weight loss, it soon will not be! :)
Happy weekend!

Weighing in September!!!

Last weigh in for 2 weeks!!! 136.8 lbs. Its going to drive me nuts not being by a scale.
We are leaving for vacation in about an hour. I'm so excited. We will be in the car for a couple days tho. I brought 3 books on tape and many 100 cal snacks.
Making a definite stop at Starbucks for my PSL. I love Scot even more for getting me that gift card! :)
I haven't planned my cheat days out just yet but I will post about it and my exercises and my progress pic. That will keep me on track.
Busy day so must cut this short. Happy weekend!

Nothing to measure with

It will be two weeks until I can measure in next. Hopefully it'll be a nice change from last time. I can tell a difference in my legs. I'm ready to go down another pants size but I don't think I'm ready for my 5s yet. I might try them on today just to see how close I am. I would like to fit into them at least once before its too cold to wear shorts. I don't know if I have any jeans smaller than 10s. I'll look around tho. Might need to go shopping.
I think we have a few weeks of shorts weather left. I'd still like to be 135 lbs by my engagement party September 21st. I haven't reached my goals very well in the past but this one feels realistic.
I'm excited to see my weight tomorrow morning. Maybe I'll take my parents scale tonight so I have it for sure!
I'm also excited for Scot to get out of class so we can spend another day together. He gave me 51 dollars to take on my trip and a 15 dollar Starbucks card for my pumpkin cravings. He's really the best <3 :)

No cals left

And I'm hungry. If it weren't so late I'd eat and then exercise.
Food log:
Breakfast: biscuits and gravy, cup of coffee with French vanilla cream
Lunch: little slow cooked pork, decaf nonfat pumpkin latte from Starbucks, 1/3 of low fat pumpkin cream cheese loaf
Dinner: 1 piece of tomato bread, two small pieces of pizza.

I reached my calorie limit but not much healthiness in the food I ate!

I am at my moms now, Scots coming over after his class tomorrow and then early Friday we part ways! I head for Tennessee and he heads for his next class. I'm glad he's taking classes but I'm going to miss him a lot :/

Don't have my tape measure to measure in tomorrow but will try weighing in Friday! Hopefully a good start to my vacation!

Finallyyy!!!

I feel 110% better! My energy has returned. The pain of bloating has reduced. My mood is happy! Its the event I've been waiting for!!!
Scot and I went on a date tonight since he's not coming on vacation with us. We went to a pizza place. I had soup and salad but also ate a piece of tomato pizza bread. And a bite of pizza. I definitely feel like I blew over my calorie limit. We did a 10 min Comcast exercise after we got home and put the little one to bed.
It felt pretty good actually. I haven't done one of those workouts in so long! He says we should agree to do a 10 min exercise everyday. That would be great but tomorrow is the last day we will see each other in a week and a half! I'll just have to do my best to incorporate exercise in my everyday while I'm gone. It does really get hard to stick to the diet 6 days a week. I do well most the time but not so much tonight.
There's always tomorrow to get back on track. I might have to weigh myself tomorrow to see what I have to work with now. I'm not sure that I'll get the chance to weigh in Friday. I will definitely try to reach the scale before we leave for vacation. (Definitely going to reach a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks!)
I still will do my best to stick to my diet for all but one day of vacation! Definitely won't be by a scale that Friday. So if I don't reach one this week it'll be a couple weeks before I get to weigh in!!
Hopefully I'll have a big drop to show for it!

Progress pic 1 September

Today my bloating went down a little. I'm also retaining less water than yesterday so that is good.
I tried sleeping off my headache but its still here and throbbing at me as we speak! I have no energy at all. I just want to sleep all day. It might be caffeine withdrawal. I've never overly consumed caffeine but I have either a soda, tea, or coffee a day. I didn't have any yesterday though. So its my next guess! I don't know what's going on with my body. Its been constantly changing for the last year and 8 months.
This is just awful. I hope I feel better by vacation. We are leaving in 3 days!! I'm so tired of this :(

What the heccckk

Still no nuisance and its getting on my last nerve! I actually am 140 lbs even today. I suppose I can still have it checked that I've reached it but so much for never looking back. Sigh!
Its got to be more water retention.
Perhaps I'll be stuck like this forever. Lethargic and bloated and a moody son of a gun.
Me and Scot got in another spat last night. I've been sooooo moody.  Crying happy and sad tears about everything. Getting mad about nothing. Its so aggravating. My hormones haven't been this nuts since I was pregnant. There's no way that I am again but the symptoms are the same and I just want it to get over with. Something tells me its holding out for vacation! We are heading to Tennessee in 4 days. Then it'll come and be an even bigger pain in the A!
And my weight loss is totally halted because of it. Even when I work out, no progress! So close yet so so far away. Sighhh...

New high weight!

My new high weight is 139.2. That means I waved bye bye to the 140s and I'm never looking back!
Still waiting for the monthly nuisance! I'm sure it'll wait until vacation to show up.
Usually I'm not so crazy about the month of September but this years different. #1- pumpkin spice latte returned to Starbucks today and I will be getting one this week! #2- I'm leaving for vacation September 6th. Much much needed vacation. Will be returning the 13th or 14th. #3- my engagement party is the 21st.
I need to start planning my daughters first birthday. I can't believe she will be 1 year old in 7 weeks. I'm just holding her tight and cherishing her smallness while I can! They said it goes fast but I didn't even blink!!
Big sigh!

Many things to look forward to. Plus I expect to reach my weight loss goal of 130 lbs by November. I can't believe how close I've come!!! I'm sooooo excited! And so excited for all the wonderful things in my near future!

Cheat day is here

Well..it was here. I didn't go as over board as my usual cheat days and there was no alcohol involved..but I did go over my budget and I feel like crap.
I had a headache all day and I feel so bloated I'm pretty convinced that I am on the road to explosion!

On a more exciting note, august is about over and September is near!!! I'll be leaving for vacation Friday. Then the 21st is my engagement party. I'm so excited for it! I've started planning a lot..but can't execute much right now. I decided I will just have to use my birthday and Christmas money to buy my dress and Scots ring. I have his ring picked out and I want to make it a surprise. I know he will love it!

Must sleep now. Church in the morning. I feel so huge and disgusting. Not a very positive way to end this entry but its true. Yuck.

Weigh in day is here!

And my weigh in is 138.4lbs.
The monthly nuisance still hasn't poked its ugly head but my senses are indicating it is unnervingly close!
Guess I'm not as on track as I thought I was. Oh well! Can't change genetics!

I'm not upset with my weigh in, though. I'm pretty happy that I'm out of the 140s. I'm unsure of when my cheat day will occur. It'll probably be some random day that I don't expect. Or tomorrow..
That might push me back up to 140 but I still feel like it is another feat that I can cross off my list. (I've been putting check marks next to every 5 lbs I lose and the reward I SHOULD be receiving.
140 was a hair cut and new clothes. I did cut my hair but can't afford new clothes. However, I fit awesomely into old highschool and college clothes! I'll take that reward over anything!!!
135 is suppose to be melting pot. Its not going to happen though. Scot still has no job! And I'm not selling enough eBay items for dentist, wedding, baby food, anything!..let alone a weight loss reward dinner.
I suppose I will change my reward. Not sure to what.. but maybe it'll be extra special if I do reach it by Sept 21st for my engagement party.

Late update, the dress is getting closer but I am still not loving the way it fits. I will try again at 135. If I'm still not loving it by my engagement party, maybe after 10 months of my wedding workout routine it'll look great. Then I can wear it at my bachelorette party or something!
I won't kick it to the curb just yet.

The size 8 shorts that I have are getting a little too baggy. I might try to fit in my 5/6s. I just feel like its too soon. I still have 8 and a half pounds to go.
I guess I can wear belts or retort back to skirts and dresses.

My vacation starts in a little over a week. Hopefully Scot will start a job about then. His friend said he should be receiving a phone call to start work that week. No word yet though. We really need income so I'm praying every single day about it!

Measuring in!

36-29.5-35
Once again, Scot helped me measure.
Its looking like a nice little change from last week. Hopefully tomorrow will be a great weigh in!

We went to starved rock today and dropped off our down payment and signed contract! We also booked a cabin for the night before our wedding and of course our wedding night! Its so beautiful and exciting. It motivated us to establish a budget and finish our wedding website!
I am so happy and so excited!

We walked around the park a little to pick a few locations for pictures. I pushed the baby around in her stroller which was pretty tough going uphill! I'm sure I burned more calories than I even realize.
We stopped on our way home and ate at Culvers. I had the fish sandwich and half of my french fries.
For dinner I had the chili we made last night. Its so very yummy!!
I think I'll have more for lunch tomorrow. For two cups its only about 360 calories. Not too bad!

So hopefully today's actions will have a positive effect on my weigh in. I know fast food isn't too positively promising, but I did exercise!

I'm also excited and nervous because my football fantasy draft is tomorrow. Its the first time I've paid to join a league and can earn money. I hope I win because God knows I could use the money! My eBay items are still suffering. I did get one bid so far and that is great! Its only 1 dollar, but that's 1 dollar I didn't have before! I'll only need 99 more for the dentist and then I'll focus on the wedding. I'll need money to buy Scots ring and my wedding dress. If only money dropped out of the sky for stay at home moms haha!

Anyway, I know this is a weight loss blog and I get seriously side tracked..but life happens. In order to effectively lose weight, its best to enjoy every step of the way. That's what I've tried doing these past 6 months and that is my intentions for the future. The downs happen but it can be used as motivation to work harder and get through it. The light at the end of the tunnel is so worth the journey!

What a wonderful Wednesday!

Tomorrow I am going to starved rock to pay the 1600 dollar down payment. My parents were generous enough to help with that! I'm still penny pinching for dental bills. I need about 100 bucks for what's left. None of my eBay items are selling! But I'm staying positive.

I have faith that this weeks weigh in will be much better than last weeks. My body seems to be zoning in and out of my cycle. It could be a result of nursing. I know I went so long without it at all! But the past couple months I've been more regular than I have my entire life. Next week should be a more drastic drop I'm guessing.

And then vacation with my family September 6th for a week. I intend on sticking to my diet. Except for one cheat day. Also I probably wont be able to weigh in that week which is going to drive me nuts!!! But the following week will be another possibly drastic drop then.
I'd still like to be 135 by my engagement party. That gives me 23 days! I think I can do it! No, I WILL do it!
I might try on the red dress again to see if there's any hope for it at all!

I'll post the results of that plus my measurements tomorrow. Might post pics of starved rock, too. I'm so excited!!!

Last August progress pic!

My cycle has not started but it appears the bloating has gone down! Most likely it'll soon return but I'm glad it took a break for my last August progress pic. Feel free to scroll through and compare to previous pics (especially February ones!)
I'm feeling rather accomplished today :)

(Maybe the soft food diet is contributing)

More Novocaine please!!

I went to the dentist today and had 3 fillings. Basically I can't eat anything for 2 days that requires chewing. I'm in so much pain right now! Due to nursing, I can hardly take anything for it. My sister is going to steak n shake and picking me up a caramel apple milkshake. Its one of the two fall flavored milk shakes. (The other is smores). Its about 723 calories but I can't eat much anyway! I might split half of it with my mom. I guess that would leave me more room for potatoes and cooked veggies!
Or soup or something.

I got no sleep last night sharing a bed with a kicking and smacking baby! I forgot the swaddler she loves to sleep in. She's close to outgrowing it anyway. But it made for a very sleepless night!

Hopefully Friday will be a good scale day. I understand the weight loss slows as the goal approaches but its such torture!

I feel like the start of my cycle is very near! It could mean an additional week before any big drops in weight.

Day after :/

The day after the cheat day of all cheat days. No alcohol involved. I'm talking donuts cake cookies ice cream fried foods, any bad thing u can think of! I'm going to check the scale to see the damage. The added weight should shed faster since there was no alcohol.
Plus my friend Naomi sent me a work out regimen to shape up for the wedding! I'll start that soon since I've only got 13 months left.
Will post my cheat day damage shortly.

Mind blowing update:
140.2 lbs!
That's freakin awesome!!!
If only that could happen all the time!

That really helps with the guilt I was feeling. Hopefully that stays off and I drop more.
My cycle should be starting in a couple days. Then hopefully I'll lose 2-3 lbs.
It might even start today. That could be why I lost slightly opposed to gaining today.
We've been talking about baby #2. We would like him or her to be close to Jadyn's age. I've just worked so hard these past 6 months to drop this weight. If I got pregnant now, I'd have the baby 4 months before the wedding. Scot insists that's enough time to lose whatever I gain, but I don't want to risk it.
We agreed it'd be a blessing if we got pregnant again but I'd just rather wait until after the wedding to try. We have so much to stress about these next 13 months. Scot might be starting a new job in 2 weeks which will be a great help!!
he's posting things on eBay that i would like to sell to try to get money for my dental bills and also so I can buy my own wedding dress and possibly his wedding ring. I probably won't make that much. Especially since no one is bidding on any items we've posted so far. There's still like 5 days left in most biddings. If anyone is interested or curious, eBay search for a sunbeam plasma bulb. I think ours is the only one left. The seller name is Scot239 I believe. Look through the items. There are a few gadgets and books. More will be added soon.

Additional update**
I wanted to take a photo here. In the beginning I couldn't even fit in size 14s..these are 8s..

Measure in, weigh in

Measurements
36-31-35
That'd mean up .5 in middle, down 1 in hips area.

Weigh in
140.6 lbs.
I've hardly been dropping anything these past two weeks! Its very frustrating!
A few days ago I was 139.8. I don't know why my weight went up but its upsetting me. I've exercised and tried my best to eat in my calorie range. (Admittedly there might have been a slight slip up on Tuesday but I calculated to the best of my knowledge).
We don't have a babysitter this weekend so we can't go to the casino anyway.
I really wanted to be 135 by September 21st, for my engagement party.
Perhaps my cycle is interfering again.
I'm going to look back a month ago and see if I had this problem.

My cycle was around the 30th last month. Its possibly a week early this month. I'll see after it ends where I'm at.
Otherwise, I might be at a halt until I finish nursing. Rumor has it the last 15 lbs is impossible to lose as your body stores fat to produce milk. Then once stopped, 15 sheds immediately. Maybe 10 in my case.
I'm not trying to get down to 125 but if it looks good and still healthy it might be OK.

Hopefully I'm just retaining water and I haven't reached a halt. Also hopefully I don't lose 15 when I stop. I don't want to weigh 115 either. I guess I'd just eat more to prevent that! Or gain a little muscle.

One more day..

Til my measurements and weigh in!
I'm so hungry right now. Waiting to eat at Scots sisters again. I usually gain after eating there but I asked for her to let me know the calorie content of our meal.
I really want a good weigh in this week since last week was hardly anything.

I believe she's making veggie burgers, salad, and vegetables with hummus. I'll probably be alright. Then I'll take a cheat day on Saturday or something.
We aren't really sure which day we will make it to the casino.

Also, I forgot that I'll be on vacation September 6th-14th. The baby will be there and it's not very much of a drinking crowd. But if Scot comes I may end up drinking one of the nights. Probably not though. It'd be difficult to keep milk frozen in a car for 10 hours.

So it might be easier than I thought to cut out drinking for 4 weeks!

Hate you, diet!!!

Its a rough time period. I feel like its getting harder and harder to stay in my calorie limit!
Today I forced myself to work out (play DDR) until I burned 200 calories.
I feel like I'm more motivated to work out when I'm deeply upset. When I'm happy I get out and do more activities. But right now I'm mostly just content.
The weather is a bit hot for my liking so I don't want to do anything. When I want to do something it usually involved food and/or alcohol.
My next cheat day will be this weekend. It'll be another casino buffet day! Those are pretty great but the aftermath sucks.
I might attempt to hold off on drinking until my engagement party September 21st. Usually when I say something like that, I end up drinking immediately. I really want a good weigh in this week though. Just have to stay strong and truck through the temptations and aggravations.
I do feel good after working out, so I'm glad I forced myself to do that.
My tape measure is at home and I'm at my moms tonight. I might have to wait and do measurements Friday. It'll double as a weigh in/measurement day!

Also, I tried on a couple wedding dresses. One was my moms. It fit perfectly. If I do end up wearing hers I'll be making some changes. Cutting things off and adding things. I want to go try on more though.

That's a little more motivation to reach my goal.

Progress pic day!

Compare these photos to Feb 12 (or somewhere around there) blog is titled "another move".

Hopefully I'll have good measurements to record Thursday also. I've been so behind. Sorry the photos are blurry. My camera is being a jerk today.

:) <3

This isn't a progress entry because I'm hardly making any.
I just wanted to say happy 10 month bday to my baby girl!

I'll continue with my progress tomorrow!

Cheat day already

I went to starved rock yesterday and booked my wedding. It will be in about 13 months!
Then I ate a huge cheeseburger, sweet potato waffle fries, and a bunch of other crap.
With weigh in day being Friday I guess its better to cheat Saturday than Wednesday but I still feel guilty.
My engagement party is in a month and 3 days and I won't be at my goal weight by then.
I will be closer, definitely somewhere in the 130s, but not 130.
I was sort of wanting to slow down in case I really do drop 15 after I stop nursing.
If I lost 15 now I would be 125. Which I guess isn't too bad but 115 is, in my opinion, for my height. So I'd like to avoid that!

So behind!

I forgot to post my weigh in yesterday. I didn't post measurements because there's not much of a difference there either. My weight is 140.4. So, I didn't even drop half a pound.
That's due to 2 days of drinking last week! Saturday and Wednesday. So I won't drink this week and should have a little better of a weigh in. Still, .4 lbs is progress. I was just hoping to be out of the 140s.
I'll probably skip my cheat day til next weekend.
I have my meeting with starved rock today to see if we want our wedding there n to help us pick a date. I hope it goes well so I can start planning more.

No progress pic

If I took a progress pic today it'd be a mirror image of last week. Therefore, its pointless. I'm still slowly dropping from my cheat day. I need to exercise or something to kick start a more drastic drop. Otherwise I might not have a very impressive weigh in.
My next cheat day hasn't been established yet anyway.
I have a meeting with starved rock on Saturday to see if me and Scot do want to use that as our venue. Then we might be able to pick a date!

Tonight we are going to the movies to see the conjuring. I'm excited. Scot hates horror movies so I'm really excited that he is coming with me.

Anyways though, still intent on being below 140 on Friday! Crossing my fingers :)

Mellow Monday

New high weight = 142.6 lbs.
That's not too huge of a gain from a cheat day. Only a 2 lb fluctuation.
I'm probably going to jinx myself but I'm pretty positive I'll get below 140 by Friday! Yay! So excited to find out.
I'm craving a salad right now. I feel like my constant huge weight drops are stemming from my increase in salad meals! Soup and salad usually.
I've been up and moving around a bit more too so I'm sure that is helpful. The baby getting heavier is causing me to burn more cals when I carry her around, too. According to my fat % on my scale I'm at 22.5%. I learned at the gym a couple weeks ago that my scale is wayyy off. I'm probably more like 28.5% or something. My size 8 shorts are getting a little loose on me. In no time I'll be in my 5s! I go on vacation in like 3 weeks. I doubt I'll be in my 5s by then, but I don't have any sizes between 5 and 8. I guess I'll wear skirts, dresses, or go buy new clothes again. Might start selling my bigger pants. Could really use the money with having no household income.
I have been feeling more energized lately. Probably because of my excitement. So eager to reach my goal!!

140 reward

I got my hair cut a couple more inches. I actually really like it.
Tonight is Scots concert. He's taking me to dinner first. He said he wanted to celebrate my hard work.
I'm not sure where we are going. If we go somewhere normal then I want a salad. I'm loving different kinds of salads.
But if we go to the casino I'll probably gain a few lbs back!
I'm still going to work very hard to be out of the 140s by Friday. I'm making such progress and am more motivated than day 1!
Happy weekend and keep losing!

Awesome weigh in!

I'm on a total roll right now. Today's weigh in is 140.8 lbs!
That leaves me with 10.8 lbs to go!
I'm so excited! I think I'll reach my goal in 1 month minimum- 2 months maximum.
Of course, tomorrow will slow me down a bit. But my amazing amount of progress this week really makes me want to not go overboard tomorrow!
Again, if I lose 1 lb a week at this point, I'll be out of the 140s in 1 week! That's incredible. I'm so glad I've stuck to my diet. Still not exercising as much as I could be but I will begin that eventually. Probably to maintain my weight, or start building muscle.
Cannot wait to dress up tomorrow. I can't believe I'll be 10 lbs less than the last time I wore this dress. It feels like I lose weight faster when I don't set short term goals. Haha but still exciting!
I feel awesome!

Measure in

I'm actually the same measurements that I was last week, but I know I weigh less. So, I must finally be shrinking in the lower body. It truly starts at the top and works its way to the bottom.
I haven't measured my legs, but I can tell by the way my pants fit.
This weekend is going to be interesting. I haven't decided what I want to do at the concert. I'm at least going to have a couple beers. We are going to be there for several hours though, and I'm going to get bored and tired. So, I'm sure I'll have more than a couple. Then my weight is going to shoot back up! The part I hate.
But as long as I only take 1 cheat day a week, I still see weekly progress. Whether its 1/2 a lb or 3 lbs.
A week with drinking cheat days is closer to the 1/2 lb drop though.
None the less, I'm inching closer to my goal and that rocks! I'm legit about 60 lbs less than his last concert and that's so cool to me. I'm probably going to wear the dress I wore to bon jovi. I'm almost 10 lbs less than the last time I wore it!
I was confident wearing it then, now I'll be super confident!
Hurray! Can't wait to weigh in tomorrow!

Still going strong!

I cannot believe how far I've come! I'm only a couple pounds to my next goal reward. Then I'm cutting my hair a little more and wanting to buy a new outfit. I bought new clothes a couple weeks ago tho, so I might be good on that.
I might be in my size 8s until I fit comfortably into my 5s again. I didn't think it'd happen this summer but its only beginning of august and I'm oh so close!
I'll be going to Tennessee in a month with my family. Will need to find a bathing suit! I have bikinis but my stretch marks are not cute lol. My daughter is cute tho, so small price to pay!
Can't wait for measurements tomorrow now that my bloating is down!
So so exciting!

1st Aug progress pic!

I deleted my before/after app because it completely stopped working on me. I think the weekly changes are enough to just scroll through and be able to tell.
If I was more tech savvy I might have a better way to display the pics.
All I can say is the difference between this week and last week is my bloating is gone. But the difference between the first progress pic and this one is about 60 lbs, so I'd say its worth the scroll! Check it out!

Much better on Monday! :)

The week has started and I'm feeling MUCH better!
My cycles over now and my stomach has settled. Scot is taking a class this week to hopefully get a new job.
I'm crossing my fingers that he gets one so we can buckle down a bit more on our big day planning.
Our engagement party is in the works now. Waiting on the completion of the invitations still.
Cannot wait to see how much more weight I can drop by September 21st! If I'm in the 130s I'll be ecstatic!
I'm unbelievably close to my goal now!
Its truly mind blowing every day to see how far I've come!
In 5 days, Scot is having a concert. I'll be almost 60 lbs lighter than I was at his last concert in December!
Already, I know that my body doesn't tolerate alcohol very well. I guess that will help me to pace myself, though.
I'm excited. I'll be going to sycamore Friday night to drop Jadyn off. So that's an excuse to visit family.
Then the following Saturday we have an appointment to tour/speak with starved rock to try figuring out an exact rate and then possibly pick our date!
So exciting!

Still suffering

My stomach is so messed up from my cheat day still. I'm almost afraid I'm developing an intolerance to gluten. My sister has celiacs (spelling?) So I guess its possible. I kind of attributed hers to her diabetes. But perhaps hers is just more severe because of it. My stomach is usually fine with gluten in moderation. But my cheat days when I seem to eat a lot of it, I'm sick for days. :( that's just awful.
I don't know how I can ever take cheat days at this rate!
Yesterday was my grandmas party and we had so much fun! I stuck to salad all day. Maybe that didn't help my situation. I don't know!

Ugh cheat day hang over!

Last night me and Scot went to buffalo wild wings. We split an appetizer of soft pretzels. Then I got fish tacos. I only drank 2 tall Bud lights but it buzzed me up pretty good. I feel like crap this morning. I feel like it can't be from the two beers. It just must be from carb overload!
Its awful. I'm not going to have another cheat day until august 10th. I might even exercise tonight. That might make me feel better. Its like guilty mixed with upset stomach. I see salads in my future!

All in all, I had fun on my date. I get out very seldom. Today's my grandma's surprise lunch. I was gonna cheat today but salad sounds good anyway.
Happy rest of the weekend!

Weighing in! Happy friday!

Today's weigh in is 144.6 lbs.
So this month I've lost 5.8 lbs.
At this rate I will reach my goal in 3 months. So beginning of November.
Hopefully I reach it sooner though, I plan to be weaning from nursing by then!
I'll work out in its place but it'll be much harder to burn 500 cal every day.
Hopefully all I'll have to worry about is maintaining the weight by then.
So today was a good weigh in!
Since last week I've lost 1.8 lbs. That's still a little more than my weekly goal. My plan is 1 lb a week..but anything more is awesome!
Feeling great! Can't wait to get out of the 140s but feel like I've got a few weeks until then :). I'll just enjoy my progress, as I have been. Time to try on the red dress again!

Measured right :)

Today Scot helped me measure myself so I know its accurate.
I think I've been doing it right all along.
I'm 36-30.5-36.
So I shrunk another half inch around the middle since my last measurements.
That's good!

Tomorrow I have to be under 146.4 to have made weekly progress. In the midst of my cycle, I'm not sure where I'll be tomorrow. I'm hoping I'll drop the excess water weight by then and have a good weigh in.

Also, I'm about due for a cheat day. I might hold out until Saturday. That's my grandmas birthday surprise party. So that'll be fun. Also I know I won't be tempted to drink.

By Scots concert August 10th I'll have earned a night of drinking. I'll probably still pace myself tho. If he does anything stupid like last time, I'll need to have my wits about me. I don't think he'd be that stupid tho. I really think he's changed. Things have been different for us. We are really happy. Besides, I weigh 55 lbs less than I did then and I'm going to probably wear the same dress I wore to bon jovi.

Anyways....
I just got a craving for pizza. Ugh. No job + no cheat day = definitely no dominos. Ha!

Bloating :(

Female cycles suck! Hopefully my bloating will go down by my measurements tomorrow. Otherwise I guess next weeks will just look very drastic.
Then my weigh in is Friday and I'm hoping for the best! I think once my bloating goes down I will try on that red dress again. I'm really wanting to wear it for my engagement party! That is probably going to be September 21st so I might even be able to drop another 10 lbs by then. Wow that is a really exciting feeling! I just felt really giddy when I thought of that! Haha.
Scots last day of work has arrived! 
I hope we can enjoy our time together without his stress getting in the way. I think he will be making a little unemployment plus money taking some classes and possibly some side work with his brother. Crossing my fingers that will take away his stress and help us continue in our positive direction.
Also he's going to be the defensive coach for a youth football team so I think that will make him feel good, too.
Things are going to be good. I have faith.

Today is Jadyn's 9 month doctor appointment. I can't believe how fast time has gone. My baby is growing too fast!!! She is so incredible. She's smart and beautiful and has the best sense of humor. I never forget how blessed I am to have her. She turned my life around and has made all of this possible. I'm so happy!

I just need to exercise a tad bit more. I've been going on walks but its nothing compared to what I was doing! Maybe with Scot having work off he will want to too.

I'm staying positive! Loving the weather! Planning my engagement party! Vacation is in the beginning of September! Many things to look forward to..

Progress pic

My cycle is starting so the bloating is beginning! Hopefully it goes down by my weigh in day. My before and after app is messing up on my phone. So once again I'll just have to post the new pic and you can scroll through past Tuesdays to compare.
I haven't taken a cheat day in a week but I feel like I'm too close to weigh in day to do it now :(
That's why its best to take it on a weekend day. Scots last day of work is tomorrow.. we will see how things go!

Back to the norm

For the first time in an entire week, I've got the house to just me n Jadyn again! Its so much easier to diet on days like these. Scots last day at this job is the day after tomorrow. Then, I don't know how things will be.
I'm not far from reaching my goal weight though, so yay! It'll just take that much more control and dedication to stick to it.
I remember when I weighed 200 lbs and he said "I'd like to see you at a buck forty". At the time it really made me mad but I'm inching closer to that now.
I'd guess in another month I'll be about 140. And hopefully 130 in October.
I think if I did reach my goal and then lost 15 lbs from stopping nursing I'd be 115 and that is a little extreme for 5'7" height.
I'd have to try putting on some muscle weight. And I'd need to work several crunches into my every day routine.
My skin is awful. Funny enough, I saw a magazine photo of Kim kardashian. She lost 50 lbs in 1 month and her stomach is flawless. All of us mothers know that surgery had to have been involved there. Its just funny they try to act like she just worked so hard haha.
9 months later, I still have stretch marks. They don't disappear in a month. And losing 50 lbs in 1 month you would have so much extra skin! I have extra skin and its taken me 7 months to drop 50!
Whatever.. good for rich people haha.
I'm just looking forward to my progress pics and seeing how far I've come with actual work.

Where are my work outs?

Well today we walked to and from church. Its about a 10-15 min walk each way..and I push a stroller. So that's a slight calorie burn. I need to get back into my Comcast work out though. I'm growing so lethargic. I just don't feel like doing anything!
I don't really know what to do about it either.
I guess its just a passing rut. At least I'm doing well to stick to my diet.
Maybe this break is necessary since after I'm done nursing I actually will need to work out!
At least for now, I'm glad my clothes are fitting better. Well, that they fit period! I never dreamt of wearing size 8s again!

Other than my walk..I had banana pancakes for breakfast. A turkey dog with a bun and ketchup, baked potato with light butter and light sour cream, a deviled egg, a tomato with mozzerela, and a few potato chips for lunch. Without the chips and deviled egg, that's a moderately healthy meal.
Then half of a warm brownie with one scoop of Jamaican ice cream on it. There was whip cream and chocolate syrup. So I think that's my extent of cheating for the week. Though the website says I ate 410 cals. That pretty much completes my food intake for the day! I'll just fuel up on water and go to bed early.
Its so hard when I count cals and eat most of them for lunch.

Hopefully I have a great progress pic Tues! I'm very impatient to take the pic and my measurements this week!

Weekends here!!

Today Scots family is coming over for lunch. Then we are all going to his baseball game at the (I think) triple A field in Indiana. Hopefully he does really well today! I know the team his is playing against made really rude and childish comments about Scots team
I keep hoping he will join a different league. Seriously, these guys are worse than teenage girls. That's all I can even compare them to. I get tired of all the drama.
The diet is still going great!! Exercise could be better though. I think I can reach my goal in two months if I begin my work out routines again. Scot asked me to work out with him last night but I was so exhausted. Its not easy sharing a bed with a 9 month old for a week. I love her but its like sleeping with a trex. If you make any movement they're up and after you.
Scot also wanted me to drink with him last night, but I respectfully declined. Its getting easier not to drink, actually. I'm so so so close to my goal!!
I'm sure at some point I'll cave and want to drink again but I'm just really loving this progress!! I never thought I'd be in the 140s again so this is really a dream come true for me. Sometimes when I get on the scale and see the progress I've made I want to happy cry. Maybe someday I will, like when I reach my goal and take my final progress pic. So close!

Weigh in and retook measurements

I wanted to take my measurements in the morning since that's what I've been doing. I'm not sure how I got my bottom number yesterday. Today I'm 36-31-36.
I wish I had someone else who knows how to do it right do it for me.
I'll update with my weigh in just as soon as I can get to the scale. I slept good last night but am still nervous that I've made no progress!
Update**
146.4 lbs

Found me a tape measure!

Normally I measure in the morning before I eat anything. But I just now found a tape measure so nows better than never!
I believe last week I was
36-32-36
Today I am:
36-31.5-35.75
Not too bad!
Weighing in tomorrow!
Have to be below 147.5 for weekly progress! Not sure what to expect tho. Just really really hoping. I want to meet my goal!

No tape measure!

Can't measure myself today. So hopefully next week I'll see a big change. Still don't know what to expect for tomorrow's weigh in. As long as I'm below what I was last Friday, I'll be happy. I dont expect to be below 146 because my cheat day came at an odd and unexpected time! Haha. I'll do my best tho. I think we decided to cut out the drinking and instead walk around town after lunch. That will be extremely helpful!
And I still get to wear a dress. Nothing but pluses on this day!!!
I might even go home this evening.
Happy birthday to my sister Kellie! Here's to a great day!

Hump day

Today I went to Applebee's w my mom and ate a Greek goddess wedge salad + French onion soup. It was soooo soooo good. The only problem was it was between 800-900 cals I think. And so I didn't get to eat much the rest of the day. I'm so hungry. Yesterday I had tons of sushi, a few drinks, and bar food. Ended up going over my cal limit by probably 500 something.
Tomorrow is my sisters birthday and we are going to lunch to celebrate. I do think I will budget myself. It shouldn't be too hard. It'll probably make for another long day tho. We might go grocery shopping tonight for stuff to make gluten free fruit pizza. At least I'll know the calories I eat pretty precisely.
I'm hoping my weigh in day on Fri will be pretty good but idk what to expect.

Progress pic day

I can't find my week one pic so just scroll back and compare these to two weeks ago. Again, weight is 146.2

Night time confession..

After over 5 straight months of intense dieting, I'm growing weary of it! All I want right now is a big juicy burger with tons of sauce and toppings, loaded french fries, and loaded nachos from fuddruckers!!
I'm so tired of dieting. I want to pig out so bad! Staying strong, though. Progress pic tomorrow.

Weighed myself today

My new low weight is 146.2 lbs. That makes me believe I'm finally out of the 150s and never looking back! Yay! That's a great feeling.
Still feeling kind of sick today. I don't know if I got the stomach flu or if the wine just messed up my stomach. I guess that's what happens when you aren't use to drinking that much!
Scot bought me some sweets to make me feel better. I was budgeted enough yesterday that it didn't hurt my diet. I'm going to track my progress this week to see if I take a cheat day on Thurs. I think I can budget so I won't have to, though.
When i lose 1.2 lbs and reach 145, my goal reward will be chi tung. Its the best hibachi grill restaurant I've been to!
Hopefully that is a restaurant reward that Scot will want to honor. I remember asking him about 40 lbs ago if he'd honor them and he said yes. I'm not sure he actually expected me to reach any of these goals, though. Honestly, I'm not sure I believed it either. At one point, I had accepted the fact I might be over weight forever. I'm so glad I proved myself wrong! Now I only have 16.2 lbs to go until I've reached my ultimate goal! 53.8 down, 16.2 to go!
So excited!
I read somewhere that when you stop nursing, you immediately lose 15 lbs.
Not sure if that's true, since I haven't yet been in that position, but we will see!
I kind of feel like you would gain weight because the body isn't burning 500 extra cals a day, but who knows..
I'm just going to try my hardest to reach my goal by October 19.
Maybe then Scot will want to get a gym membership with me. I'll figure it out. Things are good right now!

Sunday!!!

I got my ring! Yay! So excited! I ended up drinking wine last night to celebrate. I drank the whole bottle.. yikes! Luckily I drank Gatorade before and after so the hangover wasn't the worst I've had. I'll be drinking again Thursday so if my weight hasnt spiked, it will that night! I'm going to try to budget my cals anyway.
I don't fit into my red dress as nice as I'd like yet. I'm going to hopefully wear it at my engagement party
We haven't started planning it, but we know its something we want to do! I'm excited. Things are pretty great at the moment! I'll post a pic of my ring. I love it!

Weigh in. New clothes!

I didn't get much sleep last night so I was very surprised to be 147.5 lbs for my weigh in!
Then I went shopping w Jadyn, my sister, and my grandma. I thought I might fit tight into a 10, but I'm actually a comfortable 8! So many nice surprises today!!!
I have gone from a 16 to a size 8 in 7 months. That's about 2 sizes a month I think. I'll be in my size 5s before it gets too cold, I hope.
I'm very excited!!!
I've been eating fruits and salads and eggs and stuff like that. And I haven't had alcohol in a week so that was definitely the culprit of my weight loss halt!
I'm going to red lobster for lunch today, but I'm going to portion my meal out. No cheat day for me! I'm too excited about my progress!

Measurements mid-july!

36-32-36
so my bottom number went down 1. It seems like I'm mostly losing in the upper back region and the hip region. First I was losing around the middle so it looks like the rest of me is catching up!
I can't wait to weigh in tomorrow! I really feel like my body is starting to cooperate with its new lifestyle again.
Maybe by the time Scot gets my ring I'll be 145 or UNDER and be able to wear that red dress!
I think the halt in my weight loss was mostly caused from drinking several days those 2 weeks.
I don't really have plans to drink until possibly the 25th (my sisters birthday) but that isn't 100%.
She wants me and my mom to go out with her that night, which would be great! But I'd have no one to watch my daughter.
Usually if I have plans like that I would give her to my sister or my mom! So you can see the predicament.
Scot hasn't been laid off yet, either. So he couldn't watch her even for a little bit.
I'm not really in the mood for drinking, anyway. Would rather so how much weight I can lose by the time I get my ring. I've already been sized for it. So, hopefully my fingers wouldn't shrink much more. They'd resize for free but its such a hassle. And when I finally get my ring I don't want to have to give it back to the store for any amount of time!

Update

I skipped yesterdays before/after pic because I'm 151.6 just like last week. There is no point in taking the same pic twice! I'm going to my dads today so I should have the same measuring rope tomorrow as last week. I don't expect much of a difference, though.
Shopped with my mom for 3 hours yesterday and had a great time. We didn't get as much of the house clean as I was wanting but it's OK! She helped with the basics and as long as Scot doesn't trash the house when I'm gone we should be fine.
I hope he gets my ring while I'm gone. I can't wait to see what he picked.
Also, I didn't wear my red dress the other day so that's why no pic posted.
I will wear it the day I get my ring, hopefully. He says he's gonna do it in a special way :)
By the way here's the pic from bon jovi.

Engaged!!

The big surprise involved a proposal July 20th but my boyfriend proposed to me yesterday morning! I'll post a photo of the ring asap. He said he's been saving up for it for 6 months but can't quite afford the one he wants yet. But said he can't wait any longer! We already started planning. Though the date isn't until September 2015. That's not official, it could change. I was kind of hoping to try for baby #2 around then so Jadyn won't be significantly older.
I'll just talk to him about it. If I want a fall wedding there's little negotiation though. We have to save up some money for this. It doesn't help he's getting laid off within the next couple weeks.
Anyway..
Today we are going to maggianos and I'm going to give him some gifts. One includes engraved stemless champagne flutes that says "Just Engaged Scot&Kathy".
I'm so excited. We have only told a few close family and friends.
Maybe we can snap pics tonight and show more people. I can't wait to see the ring :).
So I'm going to try to wear the red dress. Wanted to be 145 but am 151.5 today.
That's my new high weight since I cheat dayed 2 days ago. Not awful. I wore a similar dress to bon jovi and I think I looked great!!! I'll post pics of both when I get home.

Friday weigh in

So last weeks weigh in was right after my cheat day. So this is going to look extreme.
Today I'm 150.4 lbs.
I'm so close to getting out of the 150 range. I'm going to a bon jovi convert tonight, but don't think I'll drink.
I'm way too close now!
The big day is in 8 days. I don't know if I'll be able to drop 5.4 lbs by then, most likely not.
I'm still going to try very hard!
I'm very proud of the progress I've made this far.
I know at 160 I tried on a sequenced dress and it looked pretty good. Being 10 lbs lighter, hopefully it looks even better.
it's very short but I can just put on leggings.
I'm thinking of wearing it tonight.
I'll try it on and if I don't feel comfortable I'll wait to wear it on my birthday.
I actually bought it to wear on my birthday in 2011 and I couldn't even get it over my chest.
My chest has obviously grown from nursing and pregnancy and all that so it has to be my back that's decreased in size.
I shudder to think how big I must have really gotten.
50 lbs is a lot of weight.
Just 20 more to go!

Different tape measure

I used a real tape rope today and my measurements were insanely different!
I believe they were 36-32-37 or something.
I wasn't sure if I should record that. Considering I won't have access to it every Thursday. Still I guess its better to know!!
I still haven't dropped any weight but I'm super sick today. It'll probably make me lose a little bit for tomorrow.
Only 9 days til the big day! I have to lose 6.5 lbs in 9 days. Ha! Right..
Stupid plateaus.
The more I exercise, the less I lose.
Sure it might be muscle, but my scales wrong with the %s.
Hopefully the water % is right.
At least the lbs part is right.
Can't wait to weigh in on it tomorrow.
I'll actually get good sleep tonight so that should help some!

Stuck in 150s!

So I went to the gym yesterday and found out my fat % is wrong on my scale. Yesterday I was 30%.
I don't mind I just wish mine was accurate!
And as my title says..I'm stuck in 150s. Even after burning 1200 cals yesterday in nursing and exercise! Somehow I gained a pound.
Probably because I hardly slept.
I need a good night sleep before Fridays weigh in.
I think my measurements will go well tomorrow.
Going to the gym again today. Hopefully I will be more rested by then. I'm so tired!!!

2nd july progress pic!

I'm still 151.6. I'm really afraid I won't meet my new goal :(
I have 11 says to lose 6.6 pounds!
I'm going to see my dad today. He and my sister want to go to the gym and then a Mongolian grill.
I'll really have to work my butt off!
Today is progress pics day. I see a major difference. I look forward to measuring Thursday and my normal weigh in day

Weekend almost over :(

I weighed myself on my scale today. I am still losing, so the holiday didn't absolutely murder me!
The fat and water % are super questionable! First it said I'm 22% fat the went up to 24% in just a matter of seconds.
I'll be going to my dads tomorrow. I think his scale is pretty accurate with fat %. It also takes water and muscle.
I am 151.6 today. I don't want to weigh in every day, but I only have 13 days til the big day now.
I think it will keep me on track!
I need to lose 6.6 lbs in 13 days. That's about half a pound a day!

I think I need a couple days of hard workouts and very minimal cheat days! No drinking, for sure. I think I can hold off for 2 weeks after drinking like 4 days this week. I may not have gotten drunk all those days, but alcohol does not help to drop pounds.

I'm 1.6 lbs from checking off my next goal. I didn't do it last time because I knew it was just dehydration!
When I get to 150 without alcohol, I'll check it off. Then I will say I left the 150s and am never looking back!
I look forward to saying that. Its incredible how far I've come.

Some days are so hard, though. Like yesterday I really wanted some cheesecake. Instead, I got a Greek chicken salad.
And sometimes after reaching my calorie limit I'm still super hungry. But the rewards are worth it!!!

As of now I have lost 48.4 lbs this year.
I have gone down about 6 pant sizes!
from 16s to 10s.
I still want to get in my 4/5s though.
Still, I'm enjoying every step of the journey!

And I can't wait to try on the red dress!

Sleepyyy

Went to ribfest last night and didn't get to bed until 1:30am. Then woke up with Jadyn at 8am. Really not awful. But I'm still exhausted!
I weighed myself this morning and I'm 152.2. Was able to knock off a couple lbs yesterday by being on my feet and sweating in the heat. Gross but beneficial!

2 weeks to lose 7.2 lbs! I don't know if it'll happen. I have to try very hard to make it.
I've been losing (except this week) 1-2 lbs a week. So 3.6 a week just seems pretty difficult to accomplish. Not impossible, just difficult.

Next weekend we have a bon jovi concert to go to. I'm excited for that!
I'll just have to prevent myself from drinking.
I drank way too much this week. It was a week of weakness!!

Next week will be better :)

Addition * * *
- I'm now home so I have my tape measure.
39-32-36.5

Down half an inch in the bottom number!

New high. :(

I didn't get drunk yesterday but I ate too much! I wasn't going to weigh in but probably should.
154.2 lbs.
I've gained 2 lbs this is a week. I'll just have to work harder now. I have to lose 9 lbs to get to 145. I never meet my goals!!! Grrrr so frustrating!
I'm sure the multiple cheat days didn't help me. Hopefully if I buckle down now it will shed fast.

Going to ribfest tonight. I'll save a bunch of cals for it. Hopefully being on my feet will help.

4th of July!

I have not been able to find a tape measure today. Its looking like I'm going to miss a measuring week.

I'm going to have to make sure to measure my food intake very carefully so I don't skyrocket over my budget!
We have shishkabobs, stuffed burgers, stuffed turkey dogs, baked potatoes, BLT dip w garlic bread. Guacamole! Ugh..
Why does tomorrow have to be a weigh in day!?

I should just skip my weigh in day but I don't know. I've taken like 3 cheat days this week. And only have 2 weeks and 2 days to get down to 145 and look decent in the dress. (Hopefully look decent).

I really need to do crunches! DDR for now, I guess

Everyone have a fun and safe 4th of July!!